I Got The Feeling........

Bff, it has been EONS since I last wrote to you......since I last reached out to you. I know you have always been right here, living your life but also holding space for me to experience all things I experienced, integrate my experiences and regroup with you! Is that what you have been doing? OMG Bff, thank you so very much!! I super love you. Well, so much has happened....so much!!! Like I said in my prior blog....I don't even know where to start...So...let me just start! LOL! Wait, before I start...I am thinking about changing my blog around to match my youtube channel......Life of L Connection.............but I really love The Life and Times of Juicah Jones.......decisions......decisions.......You know what......I think Juicah Jones transformed into L Connection.........let's switch it over.......I Rise!!! Check me out on Life of L Connection blog........this will be the continuation of my Life......but with a twist......

What Can I Say?

Bff....Yes...it has been over a year since I connected with you and soooo ohh sooo much has transpired. I don't even know where to start..........well, give me a few minutes so I can reread my last blog to know where the beginning is...........BRB

Ok, let's get one thing straight! If you watched the video I posted in my last blog...when I say "spiritual work", please understand that intensely passionate sex is involved in this work. What? What? Don't act like sex is not spiritual and sacred, DON'T!

So.........pushing forward. Yes, Bff, I got to the point in my "Twin Flame" connection where I was fed up of being fed up...tired of waiting for Will to admit that our connect is real...to admit that he feels something similar to what I feel....Just absolutely tired of this shit. I know it is not my imagination. I know that after he fucks me every so gently, putting his heart and soul into every stroke, he feels even more connected to me...connected to Universal energy.....connected to his Divinity!!! There is nothing you can say to convince me that he does not think of me.......so intensely....I often suddenly run through his mind. I wonder does his body react the same way as mine?

I had to stop this shit...this self torture...thinking of how all of this time I have been trying to find the one who could replicate the way he makes me feel...........all of the fucking I was doing.... all of the misplaced Sacred Sex energy I gave away!!!

Bff, word to the wise......I am not retracting any of my blogs nor am I saying that the things I express were incorrect, false or exaggerated..........what I am saying is when a person is in a desperate place, longing for certain experiences, they may experience fantastical emotions that are a culmination of what they are longing for. In other words Bff, in retrospect, I could take specific pieces of my past lovers and combine them into one person and that person still would not come close to Will! No, I do not regret any of my experiences, but yes.....I was looking for Will love in all the wrong places!!

Now, let me get back.....back to what happened.

So, Bff, yes, tired of being tired, tired of waiting and I even got to the point where I had several epiphany moments about what I was doing and how I was scheming, plotting and planning to keep Will stuck in my creamy sex web. I realized that I was lying to Will. I lied to him and told him that he and I do not have to follow the rules of society, we don't have to follow rules, we can make our own rules because we are Twin Flames, wow....I stooped really low on that one! This was a poor attempt for me to justify us fucking, sucking, him making my pussy cry and every now an then me getting his sweet fruity cum in my eye, just as simple as that. I did not want to lose him, what we had, how he made me feel, what he did to my body, his Divine Chocolate Magick Styck, what he does to my heart and soul!!!!!!!!! I figured that if I convinced him, he would not feel guilty about being married but still fucking me ohh so sweetly. OMG Bff, ding dangit!!!! What this man does to my body is indescribable!!! But you know I am still going to try to put words to how he makes me feel....and yes, we continued to fuck for quite some time.....I made sure I was available whenever he called........my hot to trot Will pussy went running!!!!

Let me continue to fill you in for the damn near almost 2 years I have been silent! Occasional Fucking!!! Occasional Mindblowing Fucking, Occasional Galaxy Creating Fucking.......Fuck......Bff....I serious lost my mind fucking.........and this went on.....for quite some time. And then my soul stepped in....took over...had me feeling bad because I tried to mind fuck him so he would continue to piece feed me his Divine Chocolate Magick Styck!!

So, yes, I got to the point where I could not longer lie to him because I felt his struggle, so I told him. I had to tell him the truth.....I could hear the pain in his voice every time we ended our conversations, I could feel the sadness in his heart every time I tuned into him, I could see the sadness in him every time I closed my eyes. We continued to communicate, when ever he reached out to me I felt him ever so deeply within me....I felt his confusion, the tug of war that was going on in his head and heart! I knew he loved his wife, but I also knew that his heart and soul longed for me...I know that I am home...I am heaven...I am bliss...I am eternity to and for him as he is for me~!!

We agreed in July 2018 that it would be best for both of us to back off of the sex and just do real spiritual work (no not fucking, lol!). Bff, you have no idea how fucking hard it was for me to actually do this! Listen here!!!! This man.......this man here.........Will.........A slow and steady feeling of anxiety grows in my stomach before I hear from him. The energy around me gets really thick and it is difficult for me to concentrate......then I would get a text or my phone would ring...butterflies break free from their chrysalis and flutter their soft delicate wings all through me...Wait....wait a fucking minute please, let me catch my breath, I am having a hard time keeping my composure and I have not even heard his voice or felt his kiss or touch. What the fuck is happening to me? I have to sit down, lay down, close my eyes and gather myself just so that I am able to take breath.......Oh I feel myself slowly slipping away.....and I fight with all of my might to stay here......I beg him to calm down, asking him if everything is ok......gasping for him to release me from his grip! When he eases up the energy on his end, I feel a little relief, enough to catch my breath and get my bearings. Then it starts again.....that feeling......that uncontrollable pulling feeling....Shyt!!! Help me out here!!! Holy fuck......and when I see him, smell him, breath him... in.....ohhhhhhhhhhh Bff it is heaven! Imagine.........think of......re-experience the most holistic full body pleasure you have EVER felt! Can you do that Bff? Can you think of a time in which your mind, body, soul, heart, past lives, future lives, multidimensional selves, fragmented parts, etc. felt all encompassing EUPHORIA? If so, intensify that feeling, those thoughts, those memories by 1,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000! This is not a fucking joke, this is not a game, this is not a trick, fantasy or my imagination, no drugs involved, no mind altering substances taken! If you can't imagine this.........I feel very sorry for you! I really and truly do!!

When Will looks at me, I see forever in his big bright eyes. When Will talks to me, his words are music to my soul. When he touches me, I feel a gentle teasing charge of electricity run all through my body, recharging and stimulating parts of me I never knew existed. When he kisses me, ever so passionately, so softly....how our tongues do a dance of love and his mouth is so sweet! When he holds me, I melt into him. When he fucks me, I become who I am meant to be......he takes me to Ecstasy, Bliss, Heaven....his long fat dick stoking my ever anxious wet pussy......teasing me at the right time, making me beg him for more, causing my body to tremble, taking control of the very breath I take. This can't be real!!

I have to wait a few minutes before I actually respond or pick up the phone, I really don't want him to hear my heart beating through my ear as we talk....just a few more seconds and I will have enough energy.........as I close my eyes again.....only to be swept into a violent mental tornado..........wait, what? Now my body is spinning too......lawd aves mercy...what am I going to do? Deep breaths... deep breaths as I struggle to breath deeply and feel every single muscle and fatty tissue in my chest!!!!

Ok, I can do this, as my hand shakes while attempting to answer....heart pounding, heavy panting, legs shaking, head spinning, losing control and he has not even done anything....does he know.....does he have any idea of what he does to me with no effort? Maybe I am taking this too far....maybe I am just playing into my emotions and imagination, after all, the mind does not know the difference between with is real and what is fake. But Bff, this can't be fake. I did not smoke, drink or take any kind of drug....this has to be real!! Sidebar: Bff, this is what I was telling you about earlier! I would feel these things during or after a drug enhanced (weed, alcohol, molly or E)sexcapade! Why do I feel like this WITHOUT any enhancement help? How can this man make me feel like this, after all of these years.......after all of the pain? How does he make me feel like this just by texting or calling me?

This is fucked up Bff, I am writing you about something that I experience over a year and a half ago and I as I type, it feels like I am experiencing it now. I still experience this when he calls or texts me now!!! What makes this even more twisted is the fact that Will has been fucking me like he was created just to fuck me, since the middle of October 2018.

What Can I Say? (So much more, stick around! haha!)

June 13, 2017 Twinf Flame Update

BFF..................If you did not know, I have a youtube channel, "Life of L Connection".
I figured it would be nice to share my latest vlog with you so that we can stay connected xoxoxox!

Hope you enjoy my update!
Love Ya~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Hold This In.............................

I sat with my feelings for more than I want to admit………..contemplating, analyzing and investigating until I became sick.  In the past, I cried, prayed, danced, sang, meditated, revisited and even sought counsel to obtain a better innerstanding of what I was feeling, why I was feeling and how my feelings could be used to grow.  Found out where they came from and how to work with them to facilitate a deeper healing within me. Found ways to work through my challenges, made great strides, learned about myself, acquired tools of empowerment and continued to face challenge after challenge that showed my strength and how much I have grown.

I sat with my feelings for more time than I want to admit.  My feelings and emotions always tell me the truth……..if I am in alignment with my heart and soul, if I am walking my path, if I need to change my direction.  I learned from my feelings, my challenges and my journey to be me, without exception, without regret…….to use both my heart and mind to play this game of life with love, gratitude, wonder, excitement and innocence.

I sat with my intuition for longer than you could imagine, lol……….open to the subtle energies, signs and synchronicities telling me that what I was feeling, sensing and seeing was true.  Finally, I got to the point where I no longer need confirmation from outside sources to validate that which my intuition told me.

I sat with my intuition for longer than I have known…patiently waiting for things to be revealed in their own Divine Time (no, I am not referring to TFs)…..as I continue to move forward and leave the past behind.  Things I have said were swept under the rug, I knew all along, I knew for so long, that one day someone close to you would sing the same song.  When coming from me, it was taken lightly, and over time you must have forgotten, in spite of my plea. 

I sat with my thoughts for longer than usual……….imagining and dreaming could I be delusional?  I wondered when and if you would ever see….the things, the signs my intuition told me (sidebar: I always shared with you what my intuition was telling me through my feelings, dreams, visions, how I connect the dots, etc.)  Why when I shared the things I knew……you looked at me like they could not be true?  The urgent, insistent messages I shared, were said with great force, you must have been scared.  Which makes so much sense……. it was so clear, the reason you distanced yourself from me last year.

I sat with my knowing for longer than some……….my guides told me long before the time would come.  Through conversations, songs and dreams I would see……….that you would slowly forget about me.  My special day came and my knowing was clear………no call, no text, no “Happy Earth Day, I wish you a great year! 

I sat in contemplation with All and myself…………a loud noise broke the silence when something fell off my shelf.  My heart shattered into many pieces, “Not this again” was my thought.  Your casual disregard left me feeling naught.  The cycle continues and I am aware…….of the roles we both play and this time I have no fear.

I sat with my knowing whispering in my ear…………gentle words of encouragement, so loving and clear.  As I remained open, receptive and true, it suddenly became clear what I needed to do.  As I picked up the pieces and cared for each one, I heard the sweet message, “A new phase has begun”.  Painful and arduous is my task at hand…….Devastated and distraught but I innerstand.

I sit and see……the things that my feelings, intuition, thoughts, knowing and contemplation have been telling me.  While I did the work, you were remiss and at play, playing the game of your choice, I tuned in every day.  Recording my findings, the messages are clear, you don't taking time out to energetically send or hear.  Focused and driven is what you should be, my mirror, my soul, looking back at me. 

I sit with my broken pieces and hear what they say…… “You can do this L, We know it hurts but don’t delay”.  “The time is right to say how you feel, It’s ok, it’s alright, he won’t think it’s a big deal”.  Lo and behold, my broken pieces were true, when I told you how I felt, it flew right by you.  Did you read what I wrote?  Did the message go through?  Did you just ignore what I wrote to you?

I sit in confusion………thought we agreed to work……your lack of response cuts me like a dirk.  “Don’t worry, stay strong”, my broken pieces say…..”He will get the message in a couple of days”.  “Put me back together, you have things to do…….don’t let his distractions upset you”.

I sit with my seeing and I want to cry……..My emotions run deep and I can’t tell a lie.  Choices, decisions, daredevil style……….secrets, lies, stored in our Akashic file.  I wish things were blurry, making it hard for me to see……that other things are a priority and come way before me. 

I sit with my journal of messages received and I’m not surprised what they reveal to me.  Dreams, visions and feelings so deep, this energy is so strong and real, it often woke me from sleep.  The story unfolds as my dream comes true……in the messages your sister got while on mushrooms!

I sit with I Am and accept what is “real”…….in this illusion, this game, I am just telling you how I feel.  Shaking my head as I read your texts, I’m sure you remember, nope, no I digress.  A gentle reminder of what I once said, could not wrap the thought around in your head.  Three years ago, I shared with you a particular read, that said we both are indeed StarSeeds.  Did you believe, what I said to be true?, or did you perceive it when your sister told you?

I sit with myself forever and a day……..trying to figure out, how to express on words what I need to say.  Take a minute to be still, open up and it will be clear, maybe now is the time you are ready to hear.  The messages you received, I already knew, I told you a while ago, but they flew by you. 

I sit with my knowing that the time will soon come….when you stop running, you surrender, you succumb.  You are ever so close, but unable to see………clouded by denial and avoidance of things involving me.  Ever so often you see through the clouds, you get it, you lose it, where are you right now?

I sit and am patient, but want you to know.  I am still doing the work, tuning in, being receptive, working daily with Tarot.  Feel what I am writing, see what I say……I feel neglected as you go astray. 

I sit with the knowing, that comes from deep within.  You will soon truly innerstand, open up and let me in.  Right now I feel so invisible, ignored and pushed away.  I had to tell you how I feel, I could not hold this in another day.

Emotional Integration.......................L, you said what?

Hey Fam..........

A few months ago I read a book that was very helpful to me and I want to share the information and tools I got from the book with you.........it has helped me so I figure I would share the wealth.

The name of the book is Magenta Pixie is "Masters of the Matrix: Becoming the Architect of Your Reality and Activating the Original Human Template" by Magenta Pixie.  Magenta Pixie is a channel for the higher dimensional, divine intelligence knowns as "The White Winged Collective Consciousness of Nine".  She has a youtube channel where she shares the information she receives through channeling.  

While reading the book, she shares information from the "Collective" about Emotional Integration.

Emotional Integration is a process in which you actively and consciously allow yourself to feel, observe and work with your emotions to help you get a better understand of how they play one of the most major roles in your perspective, actions, interactions, reactions and relationships you have with others, yourself and your life.  Emotional Integration is also a powerful tool that can help to empower you towards enlightenment and healing.

This is how emotional integration works……………and it is best to use this tool while you are experiencing the emotions……………..

Suppose you have been working on a project on your computer for some time and it is almost complete.  One day, as you are working on the project your computer suddenly shuts down.  No sweat right, you know your work is on auto save and backed-up.  You turn the computer back on and go to open up your project and you notice that it is no place to be found on your computer………you immediately go into the twilight zone….……..tunnel vision…….type of zone.  After searching through your entire computer………you realize that your project is GONE!!!!!

You are PISSED!!!!

Our normal reaction/response would be to act according to how we feel (reactions/response would be to cuss, fuss, through the mouse and probably want to bash the computer with the keyboard).

When you go through the process of emotional integration, instead of acting or reacting, you allow yourself the opportunity to get a better understanding of your emotions, feelings and yourself………which can lead to empowerment and healing. 

So, you feel “PISSED”, sit with it (without reacting) and go through the process of:

Acknowledgement

Analysis

Gratitude

Integration

“ACKNOWLEDGEMENT” is when you come to terms with the fact that you are pissed.  You can say to yourself, “I FEEL PISSED!”

If you work with archetypes, you can create an archetype for the emotion you are feeling.  You can also create a color, shape or thing that represents your emotion.  What ever comes to your mind that shows you what your emotion looks like, go with it.  

You can even give the presentation of your emotion a name or call it the name of the emotions “Pissed”.

 “ANALYSIS” is when you take steps to discover the reason you feel the emotion.  Meditation, contemplation, prayer, writing, are forms of analysis.  

During this step you may come to a realization that you do not know why you are feeling the emotion you feel.  In this case you may have to do more analysis because our emotion tell us if we are in or out of balance or alignment with our heart and there is always a reason that our emotions come to the surface.  So take a little more time and be creative with this step if nothing comes up the first time.  The more digging and analysis you do, the more clear you will be on why you feel the emotion.

You may start to feel other emotions.  If this happens, know that your emotions have layers and take the time to acknowledge and analysis each new emotions that come up.  It may take extra time and effort, but it will be worth the work you put in now to see and feel the benefits of this process later. 

You may come to a realization of why you are feeling the emotion and/or instantly know the resolution to the original emotion.  If this is the case, know that you are moving in a healthy direction towards integrating your emotion.  

Analysis may take you back to things you experience in the past so that you can bring those unhealed and unresolved thoughts and emotions to the surface to heal.

So, you come to the "analyzed" conclusion that you are "Pissed" because you worked so hard on this project and you feel lost, like you will not be able to start from scratch again and feel satisfied with your creation (project).  You remember a few years ago when you started on a similar project and you lost all of your work due to a glitch in your computer and you never completed that project because you felt lost and you just gave up.  You also never gave yourself another shot at the project, just accepting the fact that you failed because the computer broke.

“GRATITUDE” is when you recognize that the emotion is there to tell you something or to show you something.  During this step, you show gratitude for the emotion coming into your life, you thank the emotion for being a party of you and thank the emotion for being there to help you figure out the reason “Analysis” that you feel it.  

"Pissed" thank you for showing up and helping me to see that I did not fail, I now see that this is an opportunity for me to come to terms with the fact that I am not a failure just because the computer broke...........the broken computer may be an open door for me to redo my project better than the first time.  My failure is not determined by a broken computer, it is determined by if I follow through with my dreams and goals of completing this project and seeing it till the end.........no matter what! (Ok Fam.......it may take some time for all of us to get to this point of gratitude, but you get the picture!)

When you can come to an understanding of why you feel your emotions, then you are able to start the healing process and become empowered.

“INTEGRATION” is when you actively combined all parts to make or function as a whole.  We work through all of the steps we just spoke about (Acknowledgement, Analysis and Gratitude as we are feeling the emotion) which helps us to take responsibility for appropriately expressing our feelings in a way that will help us to feel whole.  Integration helps us figure out ways to not only express ourselves, but heal, nurture and empower ourselves, assisting in the process of understanding where our feelings are truly coming from (perceptions, perspectives, memories, beliefs, etc.) and enabling us to work towards identifying how to work with our feelings, get back into alignment with our life path and heart’s desires.

Ok, so, I felt pissed because my project was deleted by my computer when it shut down and this triggered emotions I felt from a past situation that was very similar.  The past situation had me feeling like I was a failure, so I decided to just give up and not complete the project.  I "perceive" that this is the same situation, because the feelings and circumstances are the same. The similarities makes me feel "Pissed".  Now that I sat with my feelings, acknowledged them, analyzed them, showed gratitude and made all of these connections, I have a better innerstanding of where all of this is coming from. I can now move forward with my healing because now I know that the computer issue does not mean I am a failure and I can think of a few solutions to my computer crashing again. The crashed computer is not going to stop me from completing my project and living my dream.  I am going to fix my computer or get another one, back up my project on a disk (solutions).  I now know that these feelings came back up so that I could heal (I am not a failure), grow (I innerstand where these feelings are coming from) and be able to use my emotions and past experiences to grow and be empowered (I know that I can resolve/solve what ever challenges I face).

Who wants to actually do this?  You do………because something brought you to this post to read!

You are worth this and so much more!!!!!

Confirmation.............

Bff, how are you doing today?

I am doing well......thank you for asking.  No chest pains today, which is always a blessing!

So, I am tired...............just so very tired.  I go to sleep tire, I wake up tire, I am just tired all of the time..............I have no energy to go to the gym, which I pay for every month.  I can't seem to stop eating.  I start to eat more healthy and then a fall back to by unhealthy habits.

Since I started to have chest and side pains, I decided to change my eating habits to work towards figuring out what foods may trigger my body pains.  I stopped eating fried, greasy, processed food, carbs, sugars, juice and soda.  It was going great, I lost a ton of weight (which I really did not want to do) but I was still experiencing the pains.  Slowly but surely, I broke the habit and started to eat sugar and carbs again.  I gained some weight (all of the weight) back and am still experiencing the pains.

At the beginning of this year, I decided to do a food cleanse.........no sugar, carbs, dairy, fried or processed food, just so I could give my body a break.  That did not last too long either, but I did figure out which foods contribute to my body aches and pains 😁.

Now, I want (wait, the beginning of the year? It is only February 1, what the hell am I talking about?lol) to be healthy, active, vibrant and whole!

So, as I am at work, minding my own business, just doing my work, my phone vibrates and guess who it is? Yup! You got it Bff, Will 😲.

A few days ago, I was reading about people who live off of air or water or just fruits.  It must be a sign for me to look into because Will text me a youtube clip of a man who lives off of air and another link to some information about "Inner Earth".....quite interesting........for me on many different levels.  Not only was I reading about "Breatharians" and such, I recently had a conversation with someone about "Inner Earth"................

I watched the short video and printed out the information on the link.  I also asked him if he wanted to take a trip with me to "Inner Earth" and told him I will do some research.

This is all confirmation for me that things are moving forward in ways I never imagined and that I just need to be more present and open to receive the guidance that my team is always giving me.

Time for me to do some work!

Friday, April 24, 2015 Why?

Hey Bff.  Are you wondering what the title of this post is all about?

Well, get comfy cause I am going to tell you:

During the course of 2015, Will and I were getting reacquainted with each other.  We would talk to each other, text, email, speak and see each other, on his terms of course.  We would talk about metaphysics, spirituality, our extraordinary experiences, Ascended Masters, our Spirit Guides; you get the point right? When we were fortunate enough to see each other, our talks would continue but we also did what felt like spiritual work on each other.  He would channel our spirit guides and I would ask them questions, he would do energy healing on me and I too would channel out guides and share insight and messages to him.  Bff, it was pure bliss.

However, I would sometimes get this underlying feeling of sadness, pain, guilt and confusion.  I later realized that these were his feelings I was feelings. 

Since we started to communicate, I have been experiencing so many interesting things...........so interesting that I am not able to share them with anyone but you Bff, because I know that you will be open to what I have to say. 

One of the most memorable occurrences dealt with visions that I had in my mine's eye of a work related physical fitness test he took.  He told me that he was taking this fitness test and what day he was taking it, but he did not tell me the time of the test or where the test would be.  In the morning, on the day of the test, I energetically wished him the best of luck and proceeded to get ready for work.  As I was washing up, I saw a park with trees, benches and a running/walking path.  On the right side of the path, there was a metal fence and water, like a river.  I also saw a big bridge. 

(Kind of like these two pictures, but there were more trees)

I did not think much of it, but as I continued my morning routine, I actually saw what it would look like to be running on that path in the park.................there were other people also running and some passed me (or whoever's eyes I was seeing from), while caught up to and passed other people running. 

This is not the first time I have had visions, so I did not think much of it, finished getting ready for work and went on with my day.

A few days later, I received a phone call from Will so I decided to ask him about his test.  I started off telling him the vision that I had the morning of his test and asked him if the park was similar to the park in my vision.  He was silent for a few seconds and then said, "Did I tell you what park I was running in?"  I said, "No".  He said, "Are you sure because that is exactly what the park looked like during my test!".  We were both quiet, lol, but that is when I know that our connections was growing stronger!

Days, weeks and months passed and the energy between us was undeniable..........I know he felt it too because I felt him pulling away from me and one day he called me to tell me that too.  During our conversation, I knew that he was going to apprehensively explain that he is a bit overwhelmed and needs to stop communicating with me to figure out what is going on with him.  Actually, what he said to me was shocking, it left me a bit speechless.

Will told me that he could not concentrate, he was having a hard time performing his daily tasks because his heart and soul longed to be with me.  He explained that he could no longer talk to me or see me because he wanted to get back on track so he could start to heal.

How many times to I have to experience this with him? How many different ways can I experience this with him? Why do I have to experience this with him, lol?

Bff, I knew he was going to tell me we had to stop communicating, but I did not know he was going to tell me that his heart and soul longed for me.  Shyttt...........take all of the time in the world.....I have been waiting for years for him to open up to me like that.........take as much time as you need, Daddy!

His words replaced my sadness with bliss and ecstasy! I thanked him for being so open and honest with me and asked him what I could do to make this process easier for him.  I suggested that I no longer send him energy and I will only communicate with him if he initiates the communication.  He reluctantly agreed and we ended our conversation saying, "I Love You."

I knew this would not last forever, I felt him, saw his experiences and heard his heart.

What I did not know is that he would actually do things that would have an affect on me!

On April 24, 2015, I got home from work and experienced a full body shock that blacked me out for 2 seconds and had me feeling a bit uneasy and scared.  What in the world was happening to me? My heart started racing, chest started hurting, I started to get really hot. 

Ok, Bff, I don't know what is going on with me, so I left the house and went right to the hospital. 

I started to feel like there was something trying to take my soul, the very essence of my being as I sat in the Emergency Room of the hospital.  What is going on with me?  Am I having a heart attack?

I stayed in the hospital for the weekend; I was having ever possible test run on me to see what was going on. 

The doctor's found nothing, absolutely nothing! 

How could this be? I feel like I am dying!

I remained out of work going back and forth to different doctors to try to find out what was happening to me.  Scared out of my mind, I started to defend myself spiritually.

On April 28, 2015, I received a call from Will, hmmmmmmmmmmm, now this is interesting.  No more than 2 weeks ago he told me that he could not communicate with me, now he is calling me. 

I did not hesitate to tell him what I was experiencing and I did not leave out any details. 

After I told him what I was experiencing, he told me that on Friday, April 24th, he went to see a lady and they did some chanting and other spiritual work so he could get back the piece of his soul that he gave me.  He went on to tell me that he also went to see another lady, who had him do some crystal and candle work, to trap a "very strong entity" that was around him, they put this "entity" in the crystal and broke the crystal, symbolizing the destruction of the entity.

(sidebar: That is not me in this pic, lol)

WHAT THE FUCK IS HE TRYING TO SAY AND DO? Is he saying that I am an "entity"?

Bff, at this point in the game, he does not acknowledge that we are TF's, but he does acknowledge that we share a strong connection.  However, apparently, he does not understand that our "strong connection" is so strong that the things he does, feels and experiences also has an affect on me. 

As he is telling me all of the "wonderful" things he is doing to grow and heal, I am sitting in my room in a fucking daze..........................and the voice in my head is saying, "You mean to tell me that he is doing some juju to heal himself, get back the part of his soul (which is actually OUR SOUL, we are 1), trap and destroy a demon not realizing that everything and anything he does (whether spiritual or not) I feel on a massive level?" This mother fucker here..............is fucking with my life and he does not even realize it.

Shaking my fucking head, I lovingly try to explain to him (again) that the connection we share is something that is very hard to explain for human understanding, it is a connection that defies all human comprehension all laws of space, time and life as we know it.  It is an energetic, soul essence connection, blessed, protected and created by the Divine.  I told him in these exact words, "The spiritual work that you do and did affected me on a physical, emotional and spiritual level.  I feel the physical pain of you trying to get back the piece of your soul because now I feel like there is something trying to take my soul essence from me.  I feel it in my heart, that is why I am having chest pains".  I wanted to make sure that he innerstood, on the deepest level possible, that our connection is more intense than he or anyone could ever imagine!

I apologized, telling me that he did not realize his actions would have such a profound affect on me and he said he will be more mindful of what he does and who he goes to.

I remained out of work, Doctor's orders, for 3 and a half months trying to figure out if what he did energetic and spiritually damaged me physically.  Till this day, I am still experiencing chest pains, left arm tingling and all different kinds of aches and pains.  I am experiencing chest pains as I type this blog........... I have a Cardiologist, Gastroenterologist, Urologist, Rheumatologist, Pain Specialist, Breast Specialist, Counselor/Therapist and Pain Therapist, still, every single doctor/specialist I have gone to (and continue to go to) tells me that all of my organs are perfect, my health is perfect, my tests come back negative for EVERYTHING, there is NOTHING WRONG WITH ME!

So, Bff, why is my freaking chest still hurting?

Maybe Will can tell me why~~~!!!

Decisions............Decisions

Bff, please forgive me for not communicating with you through this blog......It has been almost a year.

Although I have not used this medium for staying connected, I did create quite a few videos.........some of which give great details about what I have been going through............

As with all time lapses in our communication, so much has happened and I can't wait to share my experiences with you in hopes to get more clarity with regards to my life.............I am a work in progress and may times I cant decide on who I want to be...................................

Do I want to be naughty or do I want to be nice?  Can I find a happy medium between the two? Can I find balance in my two most dominant characteristics?  Will I ever harmonize my yin and yang?

That last question is something that many people are silently asking themselves..............some people don't even know that they are asking the question at all.  They are just going through great shifts and changes, some are oblivious or just don't want to pay attention.

I can't help but pay attention, feel, think and experience this...........this thing that I am going through........

What am I going through, you may be asking, lol.  Well Bff, I no longer talk to any of the people in my past.  Higgins tries to communicate with me and even see me, but he left a bad taste in my mouth and I do not want to ever let him think that we are friends...............I burned that chapter when I burned the things he gave me.  Big Daddy is a complete turn off...........we lost touch with each other and he started texting me last year.  I decided, after he continued to beg me, to go and see him one day after work.  He was not what he used to be, perhaps because he got bigger his dick got smaller, I don't know, I really don't care.  After that one horrible experience with him and his now smaller dick, I decided I am not going to waste my time with him either.  I guess he felt my energy and started to text me, telling me that it is weird that we don't communicate and shit like that.  I don't have time for this bull shit so I just laughed, said my piece and kept it moving, while putting him on "block".  

As you know, I allowed Will to come back into my life but from the beginning, I have been torn.  Being that he is married, we don't communicate the way I would like to but we asked each other if we could be friends, smfh (really, what the fuck does that mean?)  I don't call him, but I do text him.  He calls me every now and then but to be brutal, it does not feel like we are friends.  I feels more like he keeps me around because he knows I love him more than life and will take him to the ends of the universe when ever he give me the change, which seems to be when every he is feeling freaky.  Don't get me wrong, I play the game, but I also suffer the most...................suffer because I get a piece of the pie as it is going bad, while he had the pie fresh out of the bakery.  Yes, I know I have a choice, I can say no and not see him when he calls, but who am I fooling?  This story with Will is never ending, eternal, Divinely planned.  I don't expect you to understand my reasons for dealing with Will, Bff........this thing he and I share goes far beyond human comprehension.  All I ask is that you be open to listen to what I have to share about what has happened and what is happening between he and I.  So far it has been so much, I will have to really take some time out to fill you in...........but just to give you a hint................We have gone from seeing each other and experiencing spiritual phenomena and physical, emotional and spiritual bliss, euphoria and ecstasy to me feeling like I am being followed by a dark entity that is trying to take my life, having chest pains for over 2 years (yes, I still have chest pains) thinking that I am experiencing these things because he did candle and crystal work to try to get the piece of his soul back that he gave me (damn that was a lot, lol)!  Now, today, I have to decide if I want to see him on February 8th.............right now I am feeling like I just want to stay away from him so he can continue to live his fantasy............the life he choose to live without me!!!

So, I met up with one of my elementary school mates.............he had a horrible crush on me, so bad that he used to be mean to me when we were younger.  Now that we are older, he is so in love with me, it is so sweet............................so sweet that my teeth are chipping....Yes, Bff, no lie, my front tooth is chipped!  Let's call him C's.  C's live a few blocks away from me which is very convenient.  C's is dark chocolate and has smooth creamy skin.  He is a big guy, just like I like........we have so much fun together......I mean a lot of fun, like homies fun, if you know what I mean.  He is head over heels in love with me but I do not feel the same way and I don't want him to get it twisted.  We have been "hanging out" for almost 3 years..............and almost every weekend of that time, I have been disappointed and felt used..........no not because of sex, but because I feel like he always wants me around and does not consider my feelings or what I want to do.  Now, in his defense, he would make a good mate, but not a good mate for me!  I finally came to terms with the fact that although I find a lot of comfort in his company, the familiar cozy feeling is a death trap.........which makes me stay still, warm and comfy...........but when I leave, I realized that I was in a dream..........the never ending Pisces dream (he is also a Pisces, just my luck!).  I don't bit my tongue, so I can tell you that I would probably be in love with him (Ohh....yes, I love him and care for him dearly!) if the sex game was off the hook, but I feel like when we have sex (the very few times that has happened) he is crying because he loves me so much. 😒😒😒😒😒😒😒😒😒😒  Don't get me wrong, Bff, that is really sweet, but I feel really awkward having sex with him when I feel like he is crying, lol.....no, this is not funny......this is how I feel (LOLOL).  Anyway, we keep going through cycles of him pissing me off by putting me in situations he knows I don't like (he knows because I tell him I don't like them, lol), me getting upset and telling him why I am upset, him telling me he is in love with me and he is trying, us going back to hanging out like everything is ok (minus the sex, like I said, I don't want him to get it twisted nor do I want to have sex with any man and I feel like he is crying, that is such a turn off!), back to him pissing me off..................................and the cycle continues............it continued, like I said, for almost 3 years................I am tired and this is going to stop.  He is not happy about it, but I can't be that nice girl this time...........well, actually I can be the nice girl to me! He will be ok.........

Now, believe it or not BFF, but Sam and I are hanging out again.  I never thought that Sam would have forgiven me for hurting him (remember, the situation with YumYum that hurt Sam so much he cussed me and was not speaking to me?).  Well, Sam expressed how my actions hurt him and also caused him to lose certain business connections.  He told me that the time he did not speak to me, while I was dealing with YumYum, he was trying to get his life together and the reason he called me  (that day he cussed me out) was to tell me that he made some major changes in his life; went back to school, got a new job and a house (but denied being married) so that I could see that he was stepping up his game and being a man.  Basically, he did all of that stuff to make me proud (hmmm).  As he expressed and stressed how he felt by my betrayal, I innerstand, however, I stand my ground regarding my perspective...............We were able to get to a point where we started to hang out with each other........but check this out......Bff, Sam got married for monetary reasons (he initially told me that he was not married, but I am not calculating all of the lies that he told me, or am I?).  Cum'on!!!! Really Sam?  Till this day, Sam is still married but he has told me quite a few times that he does not live as husband and wife..........However, other very credible sources have been invited to his house for parties that they (he and his wife) had and have seen them interact with each other.........as husband and wife.  Fuck out of here, who does Sam think he is fooling?  Anyway, somehow, someway, we got to the point were we see each other every now and then......................boy oh boy has he changed.....OMG...........Sam puts it down!  The first time we hung out, after all that stuff was resolved, he made me squirt so much, I could not look at him.  Since then, every time we see each other it just get better and better.  Damn he has grown in so many different ways.............Bff, don't worry, I will definitely tell you all about it in another blog.........I know you are not going to want to miss that blog, lolol. 

I really don't communicate with Keys, and I definitely don't communicate with D.  I found out that she was talking badly of me at work when I was out on leave, trying to figure out why Will was energetically trying to kill me, lol.  I was really hurt when I found out what she was saying about me, but in all reality, I should have known.  When we hung out I always wondered why her other girlfriends would come and gooooooooooooooooo, go for a long time.  I used to think that it was them, but now I see that they left because of her.  I am better for it, I would never want a friend like...........I rather spend time with myself (but it still hurts!)

So today, here I am...................again!!!! I really have to make a decision...................Do I want to be nice or naughty.............True of Fake?    We will see.......................LOL

I Love You Tremendously

Great Day Beloved

I feel the urge to tell you that:

 

You are the bright star that lights my life

You are the breath that keeps me alive

You are my strength that helps me strive

You are my river that never runs dry

You light my path so I can see

A gift from God you are to me

The Heavens rejoins each time we kiss

My heart explodes in total bliss

Soul of my Soul, Heart of my Heart

Life is the illusion, we are never apart

Divine and eternal  is our sacred bond

Our light touches this world and many beyond

 

I love you tremendously!

Twining Twins of Divine Flame: Part 2 The Continuation of Love

This article is from

THE YIN FACTOR

BY HILLARY RAIMO

Posted on January 18, 2016

This is a follow up article to my 2012 Twining Twins of Divine Flame  
On January 20th, 2016 five planets will align in the night sky. This is an astrological event from an Earth based perspective. The alignment will last for approximately one month. Mercury, Venus, Mars, Jupiter and Saturn – will appear in a line, visible to the naked eye.

http://www.australiangeographic.com.au/news/2016/01/the-planets-are-about-to-align?adbsc=social_20160115_57284006&adbid=10153342514928339&adbpl=fb&adbpr=100614418338

This epic alignment signals the continuation of love. Love based here on Earth. Bringing it down from the heavens and anchoring it on real ground. The time to work with your twin flame is here, and the signs are everywhere. You cannot fake true synchronistic happenings. The kind that give a level of confirmation nothing else can. They are personal and when they happen between you and your twin, they will be tangible on all levels. You will spark ah-ha moments between the two of you, that will ripple outward into the etheric realm touching everyone and everything. It is this kind of quantum entanglement that will become stronger as you both practice and accept the level of connection your joining births. Trust is the only way to proceed. Deep trust and a promise to protect each other in this space. The biggest challenge twins will face now is trust. Synchronistic events can be manipulated. It takes a darkened heart indeed to deal this level of manipulation, and the repercussions of it are drastic and life threatening. That said, however, there is a higher force at work, assisting and propelling twins towards their awakened destiny. Because what they produce together has the power to ripen consciousness in ways nothing else can. It is about connection, intimacy, real love, and a telepathic connection that widens ones awareness to the far reaches of the universe.
In this awakened state of consciousness, twins are immersed in a field of pure potential. They can create beauty or nightmares. They are both responsible for holding steady in love, and when one falters, the other assists in the rebalancing. Why? because what happens to one, happens to the other. The bond that is invoked is potent, powerful and has unlimited strength. It is the manna, the chalice and the contents of the holy grail. It is what so many seek, yet they often look in the wrong places. A twin is not something to pretend to be, or insist you are. The phenomena will happen or it won’t. When it starts it is wise to take notice. You can experiment with it, practice it and eventually master it. When twins master their bond, the magic that comes is the true threat to the establishments, religions and complexes designed today to keep people dumbed down and powerless. The bond that exists between true twin flames is a spark, a seed, of extreme quantum consciousness that will open the most closed system to the light.

The bumps and bruises twins get along the way will toughen their resolve and they will rise to the occasion to bring all they are to the table for each other, because they cannot deny the experience that happens between them. Today, most are afraid, resistant and reluctant to engage on this level of intimacy. For whatever reason, they avoid it because it is to much for them, or they are not ready, and there is nothing the other twin can do about it except have patience and wait. The phenomena that happens can freak people out, turn on their run apps full force, and off they go, insisting you aren’t their twin and someone else is, or they aren’t ready for a zillion reasons. In the grand scheme of lifetimes this small pause is nothing, yet to the other twin it can feel like eternity. You travel through worlds, incarnate on the same planet at the same time, you cross paths and meet, the spark is there, and finally you can say yes. This is no small feat. Often taken for granted or dismissed, when it is acknowledged the bond twines, and begins to glow a golden hue, activated once again. Memories will surface, drawn out of your cells, you will go through a variety of emotions, as your crust breaks open from the force. You will be stripped naked and lay in surrender under the moon. Nothing can eclipse the feeling.

The twin can see everything inside and around you. You can hide nothing. Secrets are unveiled in an instant and knowing is constant. You can close your eyes and feel them, anytime anywhere. Distance is an illusion. Separation a lie. The spiritual significance of this connection is of the upmost importance. Ancient cultures knew the power of such connections and the symbolism is deeply rooted into their ruins left behind.

If you lie and deceive your twin, they know instantly. You cannot manipulate them because  they are your emotions, streaming live in real time, you both share the same mindspace. The telepathic abilities between the two surpass the abilities in normal situations. Twinning is the ability to interact with your twin on all sensual levels of consciousness. Do not think this connection is all fun and games. It will open your consciousness in ways nothing else has, it will ripple through parts of you that have had little or no movement in eons. This will cause all sorts of things to rise to your surface. If these things are faced together, you will overcome them and clear the field for the work the two of you have in this lifetime. You have found each other for reasons you can only perhaps glimpse in rare moments of higher understanding. No one has all the answers, but together you find more than if you are alone. This is how the sight between two becomes one.

Twins can change the weather. Their magnetic fields increase and the stronger the connection, the stronger the affect.

http://www.foxnews.com/science/2016/01/01/temperatures-spike-almost-50-degrees-in-north-pole.html

When you meditate with your twin, the experience will be enhanced. Together your consciousness will merge and become one entity with source. In which an all knowing, all seeing perspective forms. Enhanced by both your energies combined. It is the twin experience that makes this so powerful, not only because of the love you have for each other but because the biophysical effects will be undeniable. You will feel sensations on all levels that will expand you, widen you and fill your cracks with healing salve.

The sexual energy will ripen, and when you merge physically it will consecrate the bond. This is where one must tread lightly with great respect to self and the other. The sexual energy that is produced between twins will be extraordinary and has endless potential. It will take you to the stars. True twins will conceive a new world between them. A tangible place with texture and meaning. Adding sexual energy is what happens naturally as twins are attracted to each other in ways that far surpass the ‘we are all one’ love. As much as everyone wants to believe in unconditional love, one must have boundaries and be respectful and accountable to their own actions and assumptions, as well as actions of the other. For example, to use the soulmate energy as a line to get someone in bed, or to invoke it just for the fun of it, creates a nasty karma both will have to work out for an undetermined amount of ‘time’ and there are deep energetic repercussions. Never invoke this bond between yourself and another unless you are sure and it is absolutely reciprocated fully by the other. To do any different will create a very messy entanglement and can be very harmful to self and others. You must stand in your integrity in the twinning, or it collapses the love bubble, and can do great harm. In which case, it will take work to rebuild and heal. Work which can take seconds, or centuries.

During events of great astrology or big earth changes, twin energies can have a stabilizing effect. If everyone was partnered with their true twin, the amount of love infused etherically would quantumly shift the scales and rebalance humanities energy fields which are intimately connected to this planet. Just like the true purpose of megalithic sites around the world, working WITH earth energy fields and WITH magnetic lines, love can create a plethora of dynamic influence which can drastically change consciousness, which ultimately is connected to everything. Hate is a powerful energy, one we can all feel when it enters our space. Love is the same, yet it has the opposite effect, instead of shutting us down, it opens us up. This opening is ripe and filled with vast potential which when used for the right thing, and the right wolf is fed, has enormous repercussions in ways humanity has yet to learn. Science will catch up eventually and show these connections as true. Until then it is something intuitives have felt and known for a very long time, as has Shamans and indigenous healers worldwide.

What are the odds you and your twin have incarnated now? Right now. Why? What would the purpose be? Can you stay long enough in that holy space to find out? or will you run away and bury yourself in your addictions and old ways of loving? If I told you you could make it rain, or cause an earthquake, or move a pencil on a desk 3000 miles away, would you believe me? It takes complete and holy trust. It takes courage, strength and hope to make the twin energies work at their fullest potential. We are evolving into a world where sensual telepathy will become normal, expected and understood.

Being magnetically attracted to your twin means there is gravity between you. Gravity pulls you together for a reason. Your partnership is reflected in the very physics that cause the pull. Listen to the pull. Go with the pull. Fall into it as far as you can. Face what comes and get through it together. The challenges may be great, resolve will purify the connection and concentrate the power of it drop by drop as you steep in it and it ripens your wise.


Your twin will show up when you are ready. Ready to surrender to yourself and another. No walls, no games, no bullshit. It will be ripe right from the start; intense and will challenge your belief in relationship right from the initial interaction. Societies rules have no say in this connection. It overrides everything. It consumes. It spits you out on the other side of yourself. You are seen for all you are. You are heard in everything you fail to say. You are felt on levels never before felt. It may be new or it may be reminiscent of past loves, which may have held glimpses of your twin before they arrived. Preparing you for the real deal. Holding you in time and space so you can acclimate to your new level of ascension. Twin love transforms, transmutes and challenges all of your known realities, beliefs and asks you to reform accordingly.

Imposter soulmates, those who enter your space with the intention to deceive are a new reality of pain. The subject of soulmates, twin flames, is widely discussed now, and in spiritual circles this can quickly become abused and used as a means to invade another persons space. In order to not block your twins energy because of doubt or mistrust, one must depend on synchronistic confirmations. The kind that only belong to you, that no one knows about, because this is Universe speaking to you directly. It is Universe saying WAKE THE FUCK UP! THIS IS FOR REAL! There is no time constraints on twin interactions or energy. They may come in for a season, or a lifetime. They do not necessarily stay longterm, or enter into traditional relationships. Although some do commit and stay together doing great work in the world together. I believe twin energy is meant to create exactly what is necessary and relevant between them during their time together. You have an eternity to intertwine. You will always eventually cross paths because you are magnetically compatible. The cognition ignites and there is no denying it.

When problems arise between twins it is vital to pay close attention. The bond that is created can reek havoc on each other if it is disharmonious. Your negativity can cause your twin to get ill, or have negative thoughts and reactions. Your denial and rejection of your twin can cause discord and even death. If someone is your true twin, you must have that conversation. Put it on the table. Talk about it, clear your feelings respectively and honor your own and the other through the resolve. Clearing the tension can clear the field and release the productive energies waiting for the ok. Once the resolution is complete both twins will continue to feel the high energy, high octane movement created between them and off they go, ready to conquer the world.

How do you know it is a true twin and not an imposter twin? Your body will tell you. Your spirit will acknowledge it and the confirmations will be undeniable, personal and completely relevant. Like finding a needle in the sand on a 10 mile long beach. Yet still the human mind plays tricks and even this level of confirmation can sometimes be overlooked. Sadly some continue to spin in their ego, resisting and reluctant. This may be a sign they are not your twin, or they are and just need to work through their feelings. Free will is the security system set up within the human system to protect and preserve. We all have one, we all navigate it and we all make decisions. Decisions that need to be respected, no matter how painful. Twin love can be a roller coaster until it is accepted completely by both twins. Patience is vital, perseverance and trust in the bond.

Leaving twin relationships can be tricky, challenging and unsettling. If you have accomplished what you were to accomplish together, you may in fact be in a situation that asks you to separate from it. The withdrawal will be steady and swift. It will cut you like a sword and the wound will be deep and take time to heal. You will get through it. Time assists us as does a higher perspective and understanding that everything happens for a reason, and sometimes we simply do not see that reason in our human form, but we have to trust spirit and the coordination. Perhaps it was only a glimpse, and the twin who is your true match is coming closer as you ripen and become ready. Twins sometimes do not incarnate at the same time in current lifetimes, so we only get to feel them slightly through others as they visit us through them. It is a tangible energetic imprint signature that is undeniably real. If it fades, and you wonder why, it may be that your twin could only come through for a moment, touch you through someone else, and give you the necessary exchange at just the right time. Always looking out for each other, always having your best interest at heart, your true twin will never hurt you, never leave you, and will always love you even through your storms. As you will for them.

Twins work on large levels. All the time. Nothing is ever irrelevant between them. They have the power to change things. Literally. Together they can assist the world should they both choose to do so. If they choose to partner ceremoniously this increases their power tenfold. A sacred act on an auspicious day or timing or alignment will enhance their efforts greatly and empower their magic. As we spin through the galaxy on this one rock we call home, as we navigate a million obstacles every day moving slightly towards them in each way, gravitating towards a better understanding of self and other, we allow the nurturing of an element, esoteric in nature, to form. This entity will rise up and ignite others, inspire them and also attract other forms of things that wish to break it up. Distractions, past relationships, people seeking the flame for themselves, evil and their legions of forces will stop at nothing to disrupt true twins. Because what is conceived within their union is the stuff ancient myths and prophecies have predicted since the beginning of time. It is not a savior we wait for to return, it is a high quality love with the ability to light up consciousness in new ways that open the channels to new ideas and solutions for a planet in need. High quality mergers, such as twins coming together, launches a new wave of renewed energy into the field, and all living beings feel it, are attracted to it, and understand the need for it now especially. There is a force at work in the world today which hunts this love full-time. Hoping to deceive you and derail you. True twins overcome these forces, and when they commit to each other, these forces know it will be a game changer. Twin love ignites a renaissance of consciousness. One that frees the mind body and soul from the oppression at work in the world today. It allows for the true force of God/Goddess to incarnate and be put to work in the world for the greater good. This is the power twins hold. An ability to do the kind of magic we only hear about now in myths and legends. Twins ensure the continuance of this powerful love, rising at just the right time in humanities evolution, like an inoculation for the virus of hate.

Hillary Raimo

https://theyinfactor.wordpress.com/2016/01/18/twining-twins-of-divine-flame-part-2-the-continuation-of-love/

Aquarius Dec 6-12, 2015 Sagittarius New Moon Blessing ~ Intimate Partnerships & Loving Friendships! by Necole

This is amazing and confirms everything that I have been feeling and sensing. 

 

Aquarius is my moon sign and Will's sun sign!

 

I really wonder if he is going to listen to his soul..............

 

The story continues, lol!

 

 

Love Occulted: - December 7, 2015

Love Occulted Dec 7

Dec 6

Posted by Tara Greene www.taratarot.com

Like two parallel universes merging or intersecting.  There will be  a predawn occultation of Venus on December 7.

An occultation is an event that occurs when one object is hidden by another object that passes between it and the observer. Occultations of Venus  by the Moon happen every six months or so.

The  best places for watching the occultation of Venus by the Moon is at 6:43 a.m. Fairbanks Alaska or anywhere from Alaska, Yukon, British Columbia and the Northwest Territories. People from that part of the globe can watch as the moon occults– covers over – Venus for an hour or more before sunrise.

An Occultation is also known as a Parallel Conjunction, as “normal” astrological angles (such as conjunctions) are measured on Longitude only.  When two planets conjoin not just on Longitude but also on Latitude (also known as the Parallels), it’s considered a Parallel Conjunction, and its interpretation is given much more power.

Everyone is fascinated with the occult these days. Occult means hidden and implies mysterious, mystical, psychic, magical, secret energies and experiences. Sounds exciting…
Did you know that a solar or lunar eclipse is an occult occurrence? In astronomical terms, an eclipse of the sun is  an occultation of the Moon in front of the Sun. A transit is when one heavenly body passes in front of another, as viewed from Earth, we can see one move across the other in the background.

Venus will disappear behind the lit side of the waning crescent moon and then reappear on the unilluminated side of the crescent.

 The moon will already be in Scorpio. The astrology of the conjunction occurs at 9:25 am PDT.  Views from North America, Central America and the Caribbean will be especially spectacular, as the two bright beauties jostle for center stage. The occultation is visible from the continental U.S. but only in daylight. However, December 7 is also a great time to try to see Venus in the daytime, either with binoculars or your unaided eye.

What do occultations mean?

They are like super powerful eclipses. The Moon eclipses Venus  and the two feminine planets appear to merge. The Moon is the Mother in Astrology, unconditional love and nurturing. The Moon is the Unconscious, the High Priestess in the tarot, she is the realm of the psyche and the womb.  The Moon is cyclical time, menstruation, ovulation, the dreamtime, night-vision, owls, Goddess Diana, the sign of Cancer, Mermaids,  Venus is love, the heart, self-love, world-love, romantic and sexual love, agape. 

The Moon is receptive, Venus is a seductress, active. From an occult point of view,the energies of this love occultation should bring you to clarity around the question of giving and receiving.  This yin/yang love energy has been floating around in my unconscious mind the last few days.

This is an eclipse of love by love.

This is a beautiful symbol of combining Feminine intuition with heart. The 6th and the 4th chakras. 

Use watermelon tourmalines if you have them to hold the energy of this love occultation.

 

I would advise you to focus on connecting with the energy of the Moon Venus occultation especially as it in Scorpio in Astrological calculations.

 

It is an auspicious time Let go and release any old ties that are binding your heart and keeping you in a false idea of separation. Healing sexual shame, abuse and  woundedness. Healing your heart chakra. 

 

Allow yourself to receive from the Moon, unconditional love from the planet Venus the ability to give love wholeheartedly. 

 

AFFIRMATION

“I open my heart and receive the unconditional love of the Divine Mother Goddess.”

I open my womb to the Light for it to be healed and made whole” 

 

Use copper to honor Venus. It is Monday,the Moon’s day and silver for the Moon.

 

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TARA GREENE http://www.taratarot.com http://www.sacredartscentre.com I am a professional Psychic, Intuitive, Tarot Reader, Astrologer, Transformational Psychotherapist, Energy Healer, Dream Worker, shamanic healer, artist, writer, singer, dancer, women's spirituality workshop leader, ritual creator and Ceremonialist. I was born this way. My life's work is to assist people to more consciousness, healing,awareness using my innate intuitive skills. I am a teacher and inspirer. I remember being a High Priestess for many lifetimes. I love magic, the Great Mystery, my children and husband. I love travelling, music, writing, doing radio.

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Mystical Marriage – the ultimate union by Judith Kusel

Mystical Marriage – the ultimate union

Posted on November 28, 2015 by Judith Kusel under Ancient Sexual Rites, consciousness, Enlightenment, Love and loving, New Golden Age, Relationships, Sex, Uncategorized

There is a deep and profound union, which truly is that of the body, mind, heart and soul, which is the ultimate alchemical fusion and transcendental transmutation of the mystical ocean and the deepest deep of that which one can experience in the union between the Divine Masculine and the Divine Feminine.

In the Ancient Mystery Schools this was understood, that the Divine Masculine  was in its purest form, it was as proactive force, a force which brought the action into being, as well as all the cosmic equations, the order, the movement, the firmaments, and that which is then the foundation on which the cosmic order is built.  It is the higher mind infused with the Higher Heart Energies which truly creates the concepts, the formulas, the engineering, the architectural, the structures – and puts the firmaments, the cosmic whole into place and positions it.

The Divine Feminine is the receptive and creative force.  When She stands in her highest empowerment, she is that which creates from the core.  She receives the incredible structuring and inventiveness of the Divine Masculine into herself, and CREATES it into being.  In other words, she is that which manifests into being, what he envisions the cosmic order should be like with his higher heart/mind, and she is the creative force which anchors this or creates the metamorphosis.  She is that which can shape shift into anything she wishes to, for she IS all creation and creation is her.  Without her, the male cannot complete cosmos – he needs her to bring in the balance and harmony and through her it creates form.

More than this, she takes his wholeWHOLE into her, and she then ENERGIZES IT.
He gives to her, she receives and then she energizes what he gives her, and gives it back to him in creative energized form!  In the end what they thus co-created, brings new creations into energetic forms and conscious expansions thereof.

Together they fuse into the GODHEAD itself, where the Divine Masculine and Divine Feminine are ONE and in oneness there emerges the ultimate, the third force, which is sometimes called The Holy FIRE, or Holy Spirit, or Holy GOD-SOUL, and therefore the true GOD ENERGY, is has both the masculine and feminine equally within it, amplified by the Sacred Fire.

When all are present the whole of creation moves, for such union is the mystical union, the ultimate infinite source ENERGY which no-one can define, but it is there, manifesting into myriads or forms and that which is form-less.  It is that which no mind can comprehend – it is that which moves through the soul energies and into that which is the true union between the heart and mind, and then into the EXPERIENCING thereof, which is then the mystical itself.
So, in these Mystery Schools the male and female acolytes where carefully screened, in order to find those souls who would be prepared to be dissolved, dismantled, and then put back together again, with the greatest purity of intent which grows through it all. They often had to go through severe initiations, and tests, in order to gain deeper understanding of the mystical, the transcendental, and therefore to hone their inner soul connections and the soul empowerment from deep within.
Within such experiences the mystical would take on new form and meaning, each one to his or her own, and as the mystical is indeed deeper than the deepest depths of all-that-is, it was a continuous quest to delve ever deeper and deeper into this infinite void – or realm or that which one cannot name – but only EXPERIENCE.

One could only step into the priesthood and later the High Priesthood, if one was prepared to the ultimate in the experiencing of the Mystical itself.  For through the mystical God/Goddess reveals his/her face in millions of ways, and therefore one has to move past all veils of illusions and move ever deeper into the realms of not-knowing, not-being, the no-state, in order to dissolve completely and allow oneself to become reassembled again, in a much greater and higher form.
Very few ever made it to that ultimate state, for they lacked the deep courage, the utter commitment to walk this path, to go on this Quest for the Higher Meaning and Purpose of the Grail, and to truly allow themselves to be opened up, vulnerable, and cleaved open, and then to experience the mystical in sublime forms.

The Mystical Marriage then was that which was given to those who were already in higher insight and understanding, that one could only truly experience true love in its ultimate forms, if one was prepared to go through the process of being reborn on multiple levels. 

One was prepared to allow the self, the ego, that negative part which always is tripping us up in some form with the illusions of fear, of self-service, self-sabotage, and whatever else, and move into the state where one ALLOWED the mystery, the ultimate Life-force energy, the cosmic Ultimate energy flow to move through one.  One became a CONDUIT and TRANSMITTER for the Divine Masculine Energy and Divine Feminine Energy, for in this union, one BECAME GOD AND GODDESS.  Therefore it was considered holy and sanctified, sacred to the very core.

It was within this sacred union, that the third force, the Holy Fire is then activated and it this ultimate energy force, which then brings out the highest and amplified soul frequencies and vibrations, to the fore, which enable both partners to EXPAND their own energy fields and their OWN HIGHEST SERVICE TO THE DIVINE, and therefore amplified BOTH THEIR SOUL MISSIONS.

So what it did, it amplified their own soul energies and soul calling and purpose, and therefore then also the power and impetus this would have on the greater whole.

Their union was then that of total dedication to SERVE in this manner, in order to create the SACRED ENERGY FORCE, which would AMPLIFY their own soul purpose and mission and then create that energy field which would sent ripple effect down the whole cosmic matrix energy fields, or in our case the earth’s energy fields, and also that of the collective consciousness energy fields and the Super consciousness Energy fields.

Yet the latter was only reached at a certain maturity in those partners, which was a total dedication to higher service, but also a true love for the Divine Other, which was such that the love-bond between them was unbreakable. 

Therefore it was known after the fall of mankind, that very few souls would ever be able to regain this sacred mystical union, for most did not have the guts, nor the discipline, nor the compulsion to delve deeper into the mystical union, because they got sidetracked by their baser instincts and the need for instant gratification and also for always looking for self-gratification.

True love is seldom found if one is not prepared to go through the grinding mills together.  Love bonds deepen and ever deepen through having to move through the deepest shadows and the greatest light, in order to experience the mystical in profound ways.

One can only understand the depths of darkness and despair, by going into the Underworld of Hades and then emerge into the Higher High of the Heavenly Light of the Central Cosmic Suns and their blinding light of Illumination.  Both serve in their own way to hone the inner awareness of the soul and then to allow it to experience the transcendental, and then delve into the experience of the mystical itself.

It is a hero’s journey in itself.  For in order to truly experience mystical Love, first of all there has to be BALANCE.

The Masculine Divine is fully empowered, and so the Feminine Divine.

One is not too much – and the other too little.

They are EQUAL PARTNERS.

They walk hand in hand, shoulder to shoulder, OUTWARDS INTO THE SAME DIRECTION.

The SOUL MISSION AND PURPOSE IS THE SAME.

They are very much alike – but also total opposites.  Yet the opposite is needed in order to bring about the Divine Spark, the electrifying effect if you like, the BALANCE.

In is in the paradox that true wisdom is found.

There has to be a positive and negative pole in order to create electromagnetic power.

The sacred union works on the same principals and chemical reactions, as those of the rest of the cosmos, for we were all created from one and the same ENERGY SOURCE.

The ultimate Mystical Union is neither for sissies, nor for those looking for quick fixes or adrenalin rushes or looking for new partners, new experiences, and excitement.  This is not at all what this is about.

If one is not prepared to walk this path with total dedication, and with an open heart, mind, and soul, and then be prepared to be taken apart, dissembled and reassembled, time and again, then this is not for you.

For every time the soul allows itself to go through the highest initiations, it is enabled to experience true love at a much deeper and profound level.  It is also then that the mystical will reveal her face in a myriad of new experiences and forms, which is transcendental.

Yet true love, within the sacred mystical union, is always amplified and empowered to delve ever deeper into the realms of that which is sublime, which cannot be put into words nor form, but is there to be experienced and then to incorporate into oneself and then radiate forth. 

It is the ultimate enlightened state of BEING which emerges from such union, and therefore is then the highest possible path.

Let those who have the innate understanding – understand.

For this is speaking to them.

(Judith Kusel)
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