Bff............I
want to record my dream........or maybe it was not a dream........
It
felt so real.........now in this awake state.........I feel
dizzy.......disoriented....Maybe it was not a dream...maybe it was
real..........I did feel..........
Before
I woke this morning, I found myself in a place where my sister was preparing
for marriage....This feels so familiar...I know I have been here
before.........
Seeing
my sister so happy and full of joy.........constantly talking about what is to
come...that special day with her special one.....
As
she paused and smiled...........I could feel her bliss.............until she told
us who he is........
Stuck..........in
shock........trying not to show it..............clouds of confusion.........am
I the only one who knows it
Can't
be true what she has just said..................cause the man she plans to
married just left my bed.....
Looking
around to confirm what I know.................everyone staring at my
sis...........matching her glow....
Quietly
I snuck out the room…………..still perplexed..................looking around in
preparation for what's to come next...
Showers
of peace reigning over me...........in the near distance..........I looked and
could see.........
The
man my sister is soon to wed............the same man who has been sleeping in
my bed............
Slowly
he walks over to me..................while I try to grab hold of some serenity..............
The
look in his eyes made it plain to see..............someone is sending a message
to me............
Still
feeling confused now combined with hurt..............this place feels familiar.....I'm
now on alert........
He
took my hand and led the way…….to show me things my dream can’t portray……….
Back
and forth I saw us go…………….was I watching, was I there……….I really don’t know….
One
thing’s for sure………I feel it strong…………..the message will come to me……it won’t
be long…
This
is the second time around……….I find myself on this familiar ground….
The
place where someone connected to me…………..has another life…………perhaps I wasn’t supposed
to see?
I
wonder why I came back here……..the pain is still present…………but not coupled
with my fear
For
some strange reason he turns to me……….still holding my hand…….which confuses me……
Looking
into my eyes…..he utters no words……..but the feelings I got made me a little
disturbed
Vibrating
with love……..peace I observed………pain slowing fading……..it sounds a bit absurd
I
open my eyes………..flesh feels a little pain………of my second journey to that
familiar plane…
Where
someone connected to me………is showing me twice……..the same fucking message……..to
help improve my life….
I
try to calm down……..I want it so bad……….still in a little daze………I picked up my
notepad……..
Right
knee throbbing………..shaking my head…………body struggling to leave the damn bed…
Not
sure of the message………I’ll get is soon………thank you spirit for not allowing me
to live a life of doom.
Bff…….I
had this dream before….where my boyfriend was getting ready to marry my sister….
But
this time around………he wanted me to see things………he kept showing my sister and
her preparing for the big day…………he held my hand and it took the pain away…….and
then he let me see him too………..and that is when I did not know what to do.
It
felt and looked like they were going different ways…………what was the message……what
was he trying to say?
Bff……I
don’t understand this message.
I
got out of bed trying to start my day…………felt spirit heavy………could not hear
what it has to say…
Stuck
in a daze………moving blindly……….voices surround me………I step lightly….
Breath
of fresh air………blows on my neck………a kiss….a touch…..what will come next?
Always
sending messages…………that will never change……..stay in the now……..release your
pain
Later
the message became clear to me………..it took most the day………..but I now more than
see
The
past is not me……….the future is near……….the present is where you should be my
dear!!!!!
Haha!!!!
Bff……..I am not only open…….I am observant………I am awake………..I am…..
