What Do You Want Me To Say? LOL

Now that we are official BFFs, I think you can handle this next episode........of Juicah's secret internet dating, lol..

The third guy I decided to meet from the site is David.  Ok this is kind of strange so don't shake your head or judge me, lolol.  David's screen name is BigDaddyi, that is the name I knew him as.  We sent each other a few emails on the site and exchanged numbers.  Honestly, because he did not immediately call or write me, I forgot about him.

Out of nowhere, he sends me a text with a pic of him.  Hmmmmmmm, hmmmm wait, ok, his pic is kind of fuzzy but I could tell that he works out.  Could not see his face at all but that did not matter at this point because neither of us were consistently texting each other. So, his first text to me was on June 9th early in the morning. I decided to text him back when I got to work.  When he responded, he came off as being "hood".  Calling me "mami', using the term "Gucci", lol stuff like that.  By the early afternoon of June 10, we were texting and sending each other pictures.  He kept commenting on how he was going to fuck the shit out of me, how I need to rest so I can take it, all kinds of shit.  I was starting to get excited, but I felt the old Juicah resurfacing.  We finally broke down, well, I finally broke down and called him.  To my pleasant surprise, he was able to hold a conversation and he had a nice voice.

Being that I was at work, I did not have the opportunity to speak with him for a long time so we had to continue our conversation via text. Life happens and the days rolled on as we continued to communicate. Yesterday was no different.  We decided to meet up tonight for some drinks, to just talk and chill.  I was a bit excited but I did not allow it to get out of hand.  Remember, I told myself I was going to do things differently.

BFF, thank goodness he kept me company throughout the day because yesterday was very boring.  I did some research on Oshun and fell more in love with her. I will explain everything about Oshun later!

The day finally ended and I was hoping that Sam would not contact me so that I could see what this BigDaddy was all about.  Don't get me wrong, when ever I see Sam, it is like I live out a Dave Chapelle episode, laughs, laughs, thought provoking keepin it real laughs, and more laughs.  It is ok for me to play nice and make new friends, right? 

All day BigDaddy and I were talking shit to each other, you know that verbal tension talk, but we did agree that we wanted to see each other early and try to get the most out of the evening.

I finally got home and was getting ready to go out with him. BFF let me stop leaving things out, lol.  I know I said that I was not going to repeat certain behaviors, but he was so cute in his pics, I could not help myself..........I...........I.... I agreed to go to his place for the evening and I actually felt comfortable with my decision.

I got ready, BFF of course I was running late, but I wanted to make sure I was on point.  I also wanted to take some time out to give Oshun an offering to ensure that the evening would be full of passion and pleasure, I just wanted to make sure that we had a good time together.

I got in my car and called him for directions to his place. Constantly looking at his pics did not help me out at all, they just made me nervous.  That pic of him in the red shirt..........ohh he looks so cute, that is no help at fucking all.  Ok, I had to calm down a little, so I took a clip with me for the ride so I would be mellow.  Needless to say, nothing I did worked.  As I was driving on the highway to Brooklyn, I was feeling nauseous, thank goodness I keep a bottle of water in the car.

The ride seemed like forever, but was not long enough to give me time to calm down.  Parking my car, I called him to make sure I was in the correct area.  Lucky me, I found a parking spot right across the street from his place.  I was hoping that he did not have a basement apartment, I guess the universe decided to ignore my request. LOLOL.

No expectation, no disappointments, right BFF?  Well, that is what I was thinking at this point.

WHAT THE FUCK? WAIT A FUCKING MINUTE.  Lawd aves murcy, this man made me stop in my tracks when I saw him.  Leaving my car, we were still on the phone and I lost track of the conversation, I was stuck! 

As I was walking away from my car, crossing the street to his house, his beauty became more clear. I fucking stopped walking and gave him the complete once over and he noticed.  My heart started bulging out of my chest.  His pictures did him no justice, it misrepresented him so badly.

He is tall, golden carmel complexion, full juicy soft lips, passionately piercing curious eyes, massively tattooed on his back and arms, bling bling jewelry sparkling, bright radiant inviting smile, my legs started shaking.  It was like my entire body was trembling from excitement and anticipation.  I was trying to calm down.......not to sure I did a good job.....lol

Damn he is fine!!!

We hugged, while we stood in the stairway.  LOLOL.  I tried to give him a generic hug and he mentioned it, lolol.  We laughed about it and I told him that when we got inside, I would give him a proper hug.  He was at the bottom step and I was at the top and he was still taller than me, lolol.

When we got inside, I had to take off my shoes, thank goodness I did my toes.  When you get to know me better BFF, you would know that I had on a house dress that looked like I was going out to a party. lol.  He commented that he wanted us to be comfortable and I was all dressed up.  Ha, I told him that I was wearing a house dress and he mumbled something under his breath, lolol.

Shoes off and ready to give him a proper hug, I started to sweat and tremble even more. Lawd, I melted in his arms.  He is ohhhh so damn yummy.  Smile is bright and inviting, lips are full and soft looking, hmmmmm hmmmm hmmmm:  Ok ok I had to calm my shit down.  I felt like in his arms are where I am meant to be.  He hugged me like he was praying God send me to him for all time, like he was waiting to love me foreva!! (Doesn't it alwasy feel and seem like that in the beginning? I may be intense and passionate, but I aint a fool!)

He could not stop looking at me, I could not stop looking at him.  It was starting to get hot, I felt like I had to do something......thank goodness.....he went to the kitchen to get our drink and I sat down, trying to calm down before he returned.

With drink in hand, he walked over to where I was sitting on the couch and lit me up. Both of us must have been thinking and feeling the same things because we had fixated smiles on our faces.  I guess both of us could not believe what was in front of us.  We made small talk as we sat on his couch drinking.  Yummy, the piff hit the spot...he does not smoke but had something for me, heheh, how sweet of him!. 

WOW, I must say, his apartment and meeting him was so much nicer than I expected.  WHA?  He has two Pits, well mannered, non stanking dogs in his apartment with him. (ahahahaha, I kill myself)

We laughed and talked more................he moved closer to me, I tried to move away.  I really wanted to see what he was about, I wanted him but I really wanted to talk.  Lawd knows how I struggle with my desires....I guess my energy is very strong, he must have felt it, causing him to sit up on the couch as we continued to get more familiar.  I can't remember what the conversation was about, but all of a sudden he said he wanted me to get closer to him because he could not hear what I was saying.

What a great idea it was for him to have gangsta music playing loud, who could hold a conversation over that? Well, I did not help it either, I could have spoken louder but part of me wanted to get closer to him also.

Wait, wait.  We joked around and he asked me if I had on underwear.  I told him, "I don't know you like that, lol, of course I do!"  We both laughed in unison and then there was that magnetic stare and awkward silence between us.

 It dawned on me that we did not know each other's names.  So, I asked him if he knew my name and he said no.  That is when we both cracked up.  We exchanged names and I said, "What kind of shit is this?  You invite some strange woman to your house and you don't know her name and I go over some strange man's house and don't know his mane."  Great, another ice breaker was out of the way.  We felt more comfortable after that and continued to drink, talk and laugh.

He leaned over and grabbed my waist in an attempt to be me to move closer to him. His power weakened me and before I knew it, we were kissing.  Rewind, He pulled me closer and I melted in his mouth.  His lips are so soft and  inviting, his tongue so soft and passionate.  His kiss felt like he was in love with me for years, ohh I did not ever want to stop, but I had to.  I felt myself slipping and he knew what was happening.

He stood me up and let his hand roam my body as he told me, "this is what a black woman's body should feel like".  Lawd, you know I am shy........and his kiss was .............fuck it made me sweat.... I had to escape his grasp but it felt so right.  He took off my dress and stood me in front of him admiring my body.  His massive hands all over me, fuck this ................ damn I wanted ..................................

I straddled him, or at least tried too, he is so massive.  It felt like we were two puzzle piece that fit together.  Pleasantly surprised, HE IS PACKIN!  We continued kissing, touching, feeling, moaning, oh so much passion.  Oshun granted my wishes and then some!

I know he felt my desire for him and I felt his also.  We touched each other, kissed each other, loved each other like we had done this before.  His kiss made me shutter, wanting more.  My little hands exploring the landscape of his body sent me in a whirlwind of aggression.  I pulled off his shorts and asked him for protection.  Sliding his hand under one of the couch pillows, he pulls it out and puts it on as he looks at me intensely.  (Hmmm, he was a little more than prepared, lol)

I usually know what I am getting myself into, but I did not know this time.  When he said he was gonna fuck the shit out of me, he was not lying.  All fucking night we fucked, all over his apartment. On the real, BigDaddy is the correct name for him.  I am biting my lip as I am typing this.  The memories of what he did to me tonight are out of control.

It has been some time since I have met a guy who can kiss and fuck to my liking. Please let David want me for all eternity (lol, I hope you don't take that too seriously)............writing this and thinking about him is making me dizzy.... (hehehe)

His dick is so big I had to beg him to be easy with me, beg him to let me get used to him and it before he went hard.  That was of no fucking use, he fucked the living shit out me.  He fucked me so good and so fucking hard that my pussy was drippin.  His dick was so wet from my pussy juices that he slipped a couple of times and almost went into my ass.  Well, not almost.  At one point we were fucking the shit out of each other, sweat all over the place, dogs quite cause they were afraid, he got me so wet he slipped into my ass with such force that my ass was bleeding.  He knew what happened and could not stop apologizing.  I had to rest.  Fuck that, my rest did not last for too long, before he knew it, he had on another condom and I was riding my new Daddy!

Let me calm down, this part is killing me.  Ohh, I stayed the night and we continued into next morning, this morning.  Everything about last night and him made me feel like we belonged together, sexually! (Come on, I know you did not think I meant together in a relationship.) 

He told me to stay and wait for him to come back, asked me to come back tonight.  I have to go to dance class this morning, so I had to leave, but I wanted to stay.

Ohh grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr, why did he behave like he has been loving me, why did he give me passionate kisses as we fucked while looking into my eyes, why did he give me playful kisses, hold me while we slept........he did everything right...........now I wanna see him again.............great just great........Oshun is in me, with me.......

Since then, we text a few times during the day but he is always calling me baby and stuff like that, telling me that he misses me and wants to see me.......we will see........

Ok, before I leave, let's get one thing straight................my feeling run deep.......my emotions are strong..........I write what I feel, but don't ever get me wrong........I am not the typical woman..........that is my only claim..........I do what brings me pleasure..........I AIN'T NEVA ASHAMED!!!!!!!!