Peaceful Anxiety............My Psychic Tension

To be peaceful is a state of being "untroubled by conflict, stress, agitation, misfortune, or commotion; being quiet, tranquil".   Anxiety is "distress or uneasiness of mind caused by fear of danger or misfortune", "earnest but tense desire; eagerness" or even "a state of apprehension and psychic tension". Can you feel both of these emotions at once?  I often do.....................I do today.

Their meanings are almost complete opposites.........opposites are identical in nature but different in degrees or vibration .........stay with me........

According to the Kybalion's "Principle of Polarity", everything is dual; everything has poles; everything has its pair of opposities; like and unlike are the same; opposistes are identical in nature, but different in degree; extremes meet; all truths are but half-truths; all paradoxes may be reconciled....meaning.........in everything.....I mean EVERYTHING....there are two poles, or opposite aspects....these opposites are really only the two extremes of the same thing, with many varying degrees between them....... Psychic tension................hmmmmm........psychics claim to have an ability to perceive information hidden from the normal senses through extrasensory perception (ESP), or is said by others to have such abilities........tension is stretching, strain, stress, inner striving, unrest or imbalance............................

Let me start from the beginning.......as I child.......I felt and saw things......things that others did not or were not willing to see or feel............When I was angry as a child, I noticed my thoughts were intense, painful and full of scenerios that would cause harm to those involved in them.  My anger was such that if focused on a object, it would move............lights would flicker or blow out..........doors would slam...............I would hear of unfortunate things happening to those who angered me.....................

Growing up, my focus was on getting through until the next day............my stuggles lied in the way my peers treated me.....trying to keep my temper at bay.........trying not to let that side out.................I was not always successful.............people would get hurt just from my thoughts..............say what you like............it is still with me.......

As an adult, I feel ever so deeply...........I am able to feel other's joys and pains...............I am able to absorb other's energy...........to feel, see and sense things before they occur...........not until recently I am comfortable enough to admit these things................we all have "powers".............some choose to nurture and master them, while others are not aware.............we all have them..................

I used to be afraid..........I now welcome with openness and peaceful anxiety what lies ahead of me..........the growth of my psychic tension...........with my new found understanding and acceptance of this very special part of me...............the part that separates me from the rest.........but connects me to all...........

During the course of the day, I felt it.........peaceful anxiety............my psychic tension was telling me that the ex was thinking, feeling, pondering something about me.......telling me that he would contact me shortly..........telling me that things don't appear as he makes them seem............the truth will be revealed..........no need to continue to look at the past.................telling me to stay the path..............remember...........remember the "ECLIPSE" Juicah........hahahahah................

Let me scare you a little BFF..................this afternoon, in my peaceful anxiety..........my psychic tension.........I received a text from the ex...........he wanted to know if I could recall the last time we saw each other (was this a ploy to communicate with me or something more deep...........his wife got a hold of some pics/vids of him and me........................starting to question his exclusivity............(zebras don't lose or change their strips, wink!)....my psychic tension............peaceful anxiety.........runs so very deeply...............

BFF, I wanted to ask him questions................say things which have not been said.............my pyshcic tension...........directs me........guides me.........protects me...............for I already know what he will say............already know what the outcome will be..................

Do I allow this to take control of me, my natural curiosity........do I let Karma and the forces of the Universe be.........they swaddle me in my peaceful anxiety...........

I sit and absorb the energies.........listen to My Ancestors, connect the situation with their meanings..............this may all be strange to you BFF, but it is real to me..............I am connected, but separate.............

Confusion sets in, but I am still at peace............take a few deep breaths...............close my eyes and feel everything, its so intense................

I welcome the future and learn from the past............my life is not easy, but I am having a fucking blast!.......loving my peaceful anxiety.........my psychic tension