Anxious

Yes, BFF, guess what?  I am off tomorrow.  I don't go back to work until July 6th............I never take off days from work consecutively like this.......I deserve it.........let's have some fun!!!!!!!!

Today at work was a bit trying..............that gnawing feeling keeps growing........but deep down inside, I know what it is about........I know my ex is thinking about me.........that is where part of it is coming from........I know you must think I am crazy, but I promise you I am not........you will see..............

Anywho.......back to the work day.......it always happens that the day before I will be absent from work, the minute before I have to leave for a few days off.....I get last second work.........

Ok, Ok, Juicah, it really ain't that serious......but it is annoying as all hell. 

I have not really heard much from Sam not sure what that is about, but I am not going to question it.....Still communicating with BigDaddybut have not seen him.....wait, I lie.....I did see him......it was just as pleasurable as the first time, but this time we talked and laughed more than anything.......I am happy that he is who he is and not jerk like..............lolol.........I must tell you BFF, what I like about him is that although we don't see each other that much, we continue to communicate and he continues to be as caring as he was in the beginning..........all smiles on my end.............

Mr. Lovel.....hmm......Mr. Lovel.....I am a bit apprehensive and anxious to see him again.......something about him.........seems intense........then again......it could be me looking for love in all the wrong places...........what the hell am I really saying.......I know there is not going to be love between me and any of the guys I meet from off of the net........there may be some passion, but not love.........I am silly but not foolish, lol........

Mr. Lovel and I have continued to sporadically text and call each other...........I did see him since the park......he asked me to go to the pier with him.........the water is so very soothing to me..........

Once again.........I enjoyed his company......he told me he felt the same and we confirmed hanging out in the next few days............needless to say.......I had to get my kiss fix from him...lol.........time for me to power up......ahahahhahahah, I kill myself.........

All in all, the day was slow, peaceful and full of anxiety............I am starting to get anxious about what lies ahead....no matter what it is I know that I am blessed and equipped to deal with it.......and the saga continues............