This is crazy..........Ok....just a reminder...I did not fill you in on what happened in July yet...I think I am going to do a vlog for that because it is a bit much to type out and I really want to make sure that you feel me....got me? Good haha
So...Bff, check out Sidebar #2: "Right timing is another big theme this month and there will be many lessons around trusting right timing as a means to effortless action. (Sidebar #2) "
Bff........let's go back........let me remind you of the following points:
I. Will and I communicate in April
II. Will and I meet and shared a kiss
III. Will and I continue to communicate into June and meet
IV. Will and I discuss meeting in July (last week)
V. Higgins' bday is in the last week of July
VI. Juicah (I) was nervous and was trying to figure out how to escape Higgins on his bday and see
Will
VII. Making excuses and praying that Higgins will have to work on his bday, lol so I can see Will
The above quote was so on point I almost lost it.....
For the majority of July....I was trying to figure out how to get out of seein Higgins so that I could spend more time with Will.
Bff........in no way shape or form did I feel (or do I now) feel badly about Will's current life situation or Higgins. I don't..........and I don't feel badly because I know that it is more than sex between Will and I. My soul, my writing, my flesh, my memories, my emotions, my thoughts, my ego and even my heart have very difficult times with this fact.....Why? Why Bff, it is simple but complicated. LOL.....Osho......knows the truth, lol....
Straight talk Bff, I don't feel badly because (this part is hard for me to admit) even though Will decided to live his life with another........there are some connections that are so strong, so deep, so true, so real, so pure, so spiritual........that no title, no distance, nothing can or will break them...........nothing can or will diminish them. In my case..........I have this connection with Will......I say this with all the love I have in my soul...........Bff, I do not expect you to understand........I don't expect anyone to understand...........I don't even understand, lolol..........All I know is that the energy that connects he and I together.................is real..............(just gotta find out what it is and what it means)
I worried about how to maximize time with Will......until I gave up...........and when I did..........Bff, the Universal energy worked that shit out and I had no problem, issue or question about anything....
I surrendered to the Universe and allowed it's infinite wisdom to guide me......I fell back and peacefully floated on the Universal ocean of energy for that week and it was pure liberation.........I had an overwhelming sense that everything would work out the way it was supposed to work out (even if things did not go as I would have liked them to go).
Lesson well learned to trust in the Universe..............trust that the Universe will bring me what I need........all a the Right Time!!!
