Hmmmmm, BFF, it seems like all of the guys are slowly fading to the background........I guess things did not move fast enough for them.........guess they are not interested..........guess what?.......I don't care, lolol..........
Hmmmm, so, I got a text from my guy, let's call him No Name, lol. No Name wanted to tell me that he has some real good stuff............wanted to know how I was doing. No Name and I communicate almost every day and if we don't, it ain't nothing, I know he is never too far away...
Anyway, being that Sam is sponsored by me, I tell him what No Name has so that he can have a wider variety...haha....Against my better judgement, I called Sam to tell him what was available and to see how he was doing since I have not heard from him for a few days.......What a fucking mistake on my part....Sam sounded like he had a straight bitch attitude......commenced to tell me that he did not want to get into it with me and that he did not have a problem, lol. I should have just saved my phone units, lolol.
Sam insisted on telling me what happened, how he called me over 20 times because he wanted my advice on business and he wanted me to drive some place with him, try out some stuff, he even called around looking for me, lolol. I knew that he was upset that I was not available for him when he wanted me to be, but such is life, right?
After I quietly listened to him and how he did not have time to go into it with me and how nothing was wrong (but he had to explain, lol), I thought it was my time to talk. When I started talking, attempting to ask him if he is attached to his phone, he started talking to other people who were around him, while I was talking. Ok, Juicah, calm down, you know how he is........what? Did he just fucking call me dude? Ohh ok, I see. I see clearly. With a chuckle in my voice, I told him that it was cool and that I hope he has a nice day, while hanging up on him. ahah. Niggas!, I swear Niggas just don't grow or change.
I knew I should have left it alone and not called him in the first place, what was I thinking? Well, I just knew it was over, I knew nothing, lolol. Five minutes later, my phone was exploding with text messages from Sam about the same fucking thing, about what happened and some other bullshit I did not read. What is the sense of having a text discussion if nothing happened, what is the purpose of him explaining to me what happened? What? I decided to just ignore his texts, even better, I deleted them without reading them. There is no winning in some situations and I realized that with Sam, there is nothing except what he says and how he feels.
I actually feel sad because of this......because of the fact I am actually trying to rationalize this entire communication situation with Sam......sometimes the puzzle piece just does not fit, this is one of those times. I think I keep trying to put him in a position in my life that he does not fit, I keep trying to keep him in my life and he just does not fit............if I were in a store trying on clothes and they did not fit, I would find clothes that fit me, clothes that compliment me and my size..............hmmmmmm.........why can't I apply the same concept to my life...............wow......now that is something to really think about..........Muah!
I like when nature takes it course and you see what peoples intentions really are without having to do anything.......ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh....So, I don't hear from Mr. Lovel, Don, Steve.....no one...wait..I am lying....BigDaddytexts me....he remains consistent.........he even calls me....hahaha....ok so far he is a keeper...............one day might go by and we don't communicate, but we pick up the next day like we did not miss a beat..........he gets to stay in my world..........
Hmmmm, so, I got a text from my guy, let's call him No Name, lol. No Name wanted to tell me that he has some real good stuff............wanted to know how I was doing. No Name and I communicate almost every day and if we don't, it ain't nothing, I know he is never too far away...
Anyway, being that Sam is sponsored by me, I tell him what No Name has so that he can have a wider variety...haha....Against my better judgement, I called Sam to tell him what was available and to see how he was doing since I have not heard from him for a few days.......What a fucking mistake on my part....Sam sounded like he had a straight bitch attitude......commenced to tell me that he did not want to get into it with me and that he did not have a problem, lol. I should have just saved my phone units, lolol.
Sam insisted on telling me what happened, how he called me over 20 times because he wanted my advice on business and he wanted me to drive some place with him, try out some stuff, he even called around looking for me, lolol. I knew that he was upset that I was not available for him when he wanted me to be, but such is life, right?
After I quietly listened to him and how he did not have time to go into it with me and how nothing was wrong (but he had to explain, lol), I thought it was my time to talk. When I started talking, attempting to ask him if he is attached to his phone, he started talking to other people who were around him, while I was talking. Ok, Juicah, calm down, you know how he is........what? Did he just fucking call me dude? Ohh ok, I see. I see clearly. With a chuckle in my voice, I told him that it was cool and that I hope he has a nice day, while hanging up on him. ahah. Niggas!, I swear Niggas just don't grow or change.
I knew I should have left it alone and not called him in the first place, what was I thinking? Well, I just knew it was over, I knew nothing, lolol. Five minutes later, my phone was exploding with text messages from Sam about the same fucking thing, about what happened and some other bullshit I did not read. What is the sense of having a text discussion if nothing happened, what is the purpose of him explaining to me what happened? What? I decided to just ignore his texts, even better, I deleted them without reading them. There is no winning in some situations and I realized that with Sam, there is nothing except what he says and how he feels.
I actually feel sad because of this......because of the fact I am actually trying to rationalize this entire communication situation with Sam......sometimes the puzzle piece just does not fit, this is one of those times. I think I keep trying to put him in a position in my life that he does not fit, I keep trying to keep him in my life and he just does not fit............if I were in a store trying on clothes and they did not fit, I would find clothes that fit me, clothes that compliment me and my size..............hmmmmmm.........why can't I apply the same concept to my life...............wow......now that is something to really think about..........Muah!
