So BFF, intense emotions and feelings come and go for me like the waves of the sea...............it seems like every second I have a different feeling.........is something trying to give me a hint of what may lie ahead..........
I try to sit in silence and be patient, so many distractions are around..............the phone, the tv, the Internet......I gotta stay focused, BFF, I gotta stay on path.............
Sometimes I feel like I have so much to do, so much to give, but no one share it with ..............so I sit...........I sit and wait...............
Dance class was crazy today.........but it was fun.............It was supposed to be a beginners class but there were so many advance students in the class, I need that kind of push.........just need to get my mind right..........
BFF, I can't get him off of my mind............is it what he has done to me.......is it what I think he can do...........is it the way he makes me feel............I can't put my finger on it........but he is always on my mind............this is starting to get scary............
I feel like I am slowly slipping away into a fantasy world where only he and I exist............where life as we know it does not matter.............time stands still when we are together...............in our silence, we say so much to each other...............
Is this starting to become a dependency?...........where neither of us can just simply be...........without the other..........that just can't be..............
I question what is happening, what is coming over me............am I tricking myself?............projecting on him what I want it to be...........but in all reality................this is so not good for me.................to want him so intensely...............
I try to sit in silence and be patient, so many distractions are around..............the phone, the tv, the Internet......I gotta stay focused, BFF, I gotta stay on path.............
Sometimes I feel like I have so much to do, so much to give, but no one share it with ..............so I sit...........I sit and wait...............
Dance class was crazy today.........but it was fun.............It was supposed to be a beginners class but there were so many advance students in the class, I need that kind of push.........just need to get my mind right..........
BFF, I can't get him off of my mind............is it what he has done to me.......is it what I think he can do...........is it the way he makes me feel............I can't put my finger on it........but he is always on my mind............this is starting to get scary............
I feel like I am slowly slipping away into a fantasy world where only he and I exist............where life as we know it does not matter.............time stands still when we are together...............in our silence, we say so much to each other...............
Is this starting to become a dependency?...........where neither of us can just simply be...........without the other..........that just can't be..............
I question what is happening, what is coming over me............am I tricking myself?............projecting on him what I want it to be...........but in all reality................this is so not good for me.................to want him so intensely...............
My days are full of mindless dreams............much more vivid than reality.............where nothing really matters...........all pleasures are fulfilled..........
BFF, I could just imagine what you are thinking, sometimes I don't make sense to myself.
Stay with me and we will figure this out...............I have to......this is my life, lol!
