BFF, everyone is getting married except for me......Everyone............
Key's younger cuz is getting married next week and we are invited to go to her surprise bachelorette party and Suzzie Wongs............I will be honest.......the way I feel.......I am really not in the mood for love and all of that shit........when am I gonna fall in love..........when will it be my turn?..............lemme suck it up and put my happy face on and go............
I love Key and her family, especially her cousin that is getting married. I remember her when she was a little girl, boy how time flies........I really want her to be happy and I can tell that she is.......I wanna celebrate with her, but I long for love so badly BFF, sometimes I cry about it...........I cry because I have so much love to give, I gave so much love and here I am..........single........lol............
So anyway, I transmuted to unhappy, unloved feelings to love, joy and happiness so that my feelings and energy would match those around me tonight......I really just wanna die!
The day was uneventful, I was just trying to prepare myself emotionally for tonight........
When I got home, I could not decide what to wear........the party is at a transvestite/drag queen restaurant, does it really matter? lol
I threw on a cute little house dress, cleavage showing, with some fuck me see through gray sandal to match my dress....come on....I am gonna be around drag queens why can't I wear my fuck me shoes? Shit, maybe they will appreciate them, no one else seems to.............
Got to Key's house and we had to make a run to a show........Key is in the music business so when business call, we answer.....................
We finally got finished with business and got to the party of the night........much to my surprise, I had a really nice time............although I was not in the mood for the type of party, I allowed myself to be open.......open to all positive feelings and possibilities............
The show was fabulous and the bride to be had so much fun..........I always love to see others happy...........
We left and decided that since it was such a nice night and still kind of early, we would go back to Brooklyn and hang out some more.......we went back to the same lounge we went to last week.........
We sat, talked and had a drink, absorbing the atmosphere............not too long after we arrived, I saw Davin...........I was not in the mood for male company, so I did my best to remain hidden......
We ended the night and I was overcome with gratitude for being able to share the better part of the evening with Key, celebrating her cousins future union in love.............I wish her happiness and all of the true love in the world.....I hope her marriage is successful and stands the test of life and time.............I know that my time will come for the same, but for now.......Congrats..............
