Colonic.......The Release of SHIT

BFF, today was such a wonderful day.......I went to get a colonic........I tell you, they really help me clean the shit out of my body and my life.

Public transportation in New York sucks.......I was 30 minutes late to my appointment with Nacim.......5 of those minutes were spent talking to a guy who stopped me as I was rushing to my appointment..........

I saw him from the corner of my eye, as I was crossing 6th Avenue.......felt him looking at me.....I knew he was going to stop me and talk......just didn't know I would enjoy the conversation as much as I did....his name is Sean........

Steve was very amped as we spoke.......very animated.....which sparked a bit of interest on my part........we exchanged pleasantries and phone numbers.....and I was off to my cleansing....hehehe.......

Needless to say, my colonic was well needed......it has been some time since my last colonic session and as you can see from all of my entries....I had a lot of shit I needed to dispose of..........the colonic helped me to release the shit, lol.

While at the office, nothing really mattered... I really enjoy my sessions with Nacim, she puts things into perspective with all of the love and care a human has......Nacim is such a wonderful spirit.......

D (soul sista) had a session after mine and we agreed to hang out for a while when we were done.  As I waited for D, I noticed that Steve called me a few times.....I did not bother to call him back, the atmosphere in Nacim's office is such that you feel so peaceful, you don't want to communicate with anyone who is on the outside........and I was not going to do anything to lose that feeling of peace..........

When D was done, we set out to walk around and do some light shopping.  Thank goodness I felt energized after my sessions.......D and I walked until we both started complaining that we were tried, lol.......

Today was well needed...........today....with the help of good company and a colonic, I feel like I can and will conquer the world.......everything is alive and I feel connected to it..........this is where I want to be...........

Mr. Lovel Pt. II

I am pleased to tell you BFF that I do not go on the Internet dating sites any longer......I still have to delete my profile, just haven't gotten around to doing it yet.......I will though.........

Mr. Lovel and I saw each other today..................and this is how it went down.................

I am not going to suga coat my life..........if I did it, I will admit it.........what is the sense in being shameful of my actions right? 

I knew exactly what would happen if I spent time with Mr. Lovel alone............we are all adults here, don't? Being that you are my BFF, I can and will be open and honest with you about everything.....even if you weren't my BFF, I would still be open and honest...........

Mr. Lovel's demeanor is very relaxing.........very soothing..........he makes me feel a bit silly because when I am around him, I feel like I take life too seriously....

My experience with Mr. Lovel today was breathtaking and refreshing............We decided to met at a "hotel motel holiday inn" (if your man starts actin up, then you take his friend, ahahahha, ok sorry, let me get back to the topic at hand.) that was convenient for both of us.  Yes BFF, you know me, I was running late, but it was cool, Mr. Lovel is so relaxed, I don't think anything will really bother him......

When I arrived, he was already inside relaxing watching "Basket Ball Wives".  Hmmmm, I never saw the show, so I guess this was the perfect opportunity to see what all the rave is about.....

We sat, no, I sat nervously on the edge of the bed.........trying not to be too obvious about the butterflies in my tummy or the ones flying around me............we made small talk......very small talk.........the show was not as bad as I thought it would be........it actually caught my attention...........

Peace filled the room, but I was a mess inside......I knew what was going to happen, but I did not in my wildest dreams ever think that he would be so complete......too often I have been faced with sexisode that left me wanting to beat myself up....lazy lovers........half ass oral pleasure............I don't wanna start on that again.....I might just get depressed lol....

Mr. Lovel gently asked me for a hug...........that is when my heart started to jump out of my chest..........his kiss is petrifying..........I know where I was, but as he asked, I realized that I may not have been completely ready for the inevitable......

Apprehensive, yet submissive, I gave Mr. Lovel a hug......as he softly kissed my neck, sending electric shocks through every vein and artery in my body......trying to get leverage was useless........I wanted him to satisfy me sexual desires more that I was and am willing to admit.........thank goodness I did not have to say a word......Mr. Lovel knew exactly what I longed for.........his kisses grew stronger as our lips met......was he reading my mind?........his touch is electrifying and his kiss is full of passion.........he touched me the right way in all of the right places......he knew exactly what to do........all afternoon we made love............our bodies and souls danced, played and unified......and the dick was fantabulous!!!!!!!! lolol.........but there is something missing.........there is a disconnect.................

The encounter with Mr. Lovel was breathtaking.............he is so full of passion...........so full of.......damn damn damn...........he needs to teach a class to other men on the art of love making................

The fact of the matter is that although Mr. Lovel and I both agree that we want to spend more time and would like to get to know each other better, (wait, we just fucked each other's brains out with love and a cherry on top, getting to know each other, it's too late for that lol) he continues to remain distant............texts every once in a while..............

I can't say that I am disappointed or surprised............I guess we both needed something from one another.............we both needed to recharge ourselves with the energy created by the passion of sex.........no strings attached.............no hard feelings.................mhhmmmmm..................but damn, the sex was off the fucking chain, lolol..................