Well, get comfy cause I am going to tell you:
During the course of 2015, Will and I were getting reacquainted with each other. We would talk to each other, text, email, speak and see each other, on his terms of course. We would talk about metaphysics, spirituality, our extraordinary experiences, Ascended Masters, our Spirit Guides; you get the point right? When we were fortunate enough to see each other, our talks would continue but we also did what felt like spiritual work on each other. He would channel our spirit guides and I would ask them questions, he would do energy healing on me and I too would channel out guides and share insight and messages to him. Bff, it was pure bliss.
However, I would sometimes get this underlying feeling of sadness, pain, guilt and confusion. I later realized that these were his feelings I was feelings.
Since we started to communicate, I have been experiencing so many interesting things...........so interesting that I am not able to share them with anyone but you Bff, because I know that you will be open to what I have to say.
One of the most memorable occurrences dealt with visions that I had in my mine's eye of a work related physical fitness test he took. He told me that he was taking this fitness test and what day he was taking it, but he did not tell me the time of the test or where the test would be. In the morning, on the day of the test, I energetically wished him the best of luck and proceeded to get ready for work. As I was washing up, I saw a park with trees, benches and a running/walking path. On the right side of the path, there was a metal fence and water, like a river. I also saw a big bridge.
(Kind of like these two pictures, but there were more trees)
I did not think much of it, but as I continued my morning routine, I actually saw what it would look like to be running on that path in the park.................there were other people also running and some passed me (or whoever's eyes I was seeing from), while caught up to and passed other people running.
This is not the first time I have had visions, so I did not think much of it, finished getting ready for work and went on with my day.
A few days later, I received a phone call from Will so I decided to ask him about his test. I started off telling him the vision that I had the morning of his test and asked him if the park was similar to the park in my vision. He was silent for a few seconds and then said, "Did I tell you what park I was running in?" I said, "No". He said, "Are you sure because that is exactly what the park looked like during my test!". We were both quiet, lol, but that is when I know that our connections was growing stronger!
Days, weeks and months passed and the energy between us was undeniable..........I know he felt it too because I felt him pulling away from me and one day he called me to tell me that too. During our conversation, I knew that he was going to apprehensively explain that he is a bit overwhelmed and needs to stop communicating with me to figure out what is going on with him. Actually, what he said to me was shocking, it left me a bit speechless.
Will told me that he could not concentrate, he was having a hard time performing his daily tasks because his heart and soul longed to be with me. He explained that he could no longer talk to me or see me because he wanted to get back on track so he could start to heal.
How many times to I have to experience this with him? How many different ways can I experience this with him? Why do I have to experience this with him, lol?
Bff, I knew he was going to tell me we had to stop communicating, but I did not know he was going to tell me that his heart and soul longed for me. Shyttt...........take all of the time in the world.....I have been waiting for years for him to open up to me like that.........take as much time as you need, Daddy!
His words replaced my sadness with bliss and ecstasy! I thanked him for being so open and honest with me and asked him what I could do to make this process easier for him. I suggested that I no longer send him energy and I will only communicate with him if he initiates the communication. He reluctantly agreed and we ended our conversation saying, "I Love You."
I knew this would not last forever, I felt him, saw his experiences and heard his heart.
What I did not know is that he would actually do things that would have an affect on me!
On April 24, 2015, I got home from work and experienced a full body shock that blacked me out for 2 seconds and had me feeling a bit uneasy and scared. What in the world was happening to me? My heart started racing, chest started hurting, I started to get really hot.
Ok, Bff, I don't know what is going on with me, so I left the house and went right to the hospital.
I started to feel like there was something trying to take my soul, the very essence of my being as I sat in the Emergency Room of the hospital. What is going on with me? Am I having a heart attack?
I stayed in the hospital for the weekend; I was having ever possible test run on me to see what was going on.
The doctor's found nothing, absolutely nothing!
How could this be? I feel like I am dying!
I remained out of work going back and forth to different doctors to try to find out what was happening to me. Scared out of my mind, I started to defend myself spiritually.
On April 28, 2015, I received a call from Will, hmmmmmmmmmmm, now this is interesting. No more than 2 weeks ago he told me that he could not communicate with me, now he is calling me.
I did not hesitate to tell him what I was experiencing and I did not leave out any details.
After I told him what I was experiencing, he told me that on Friday, April 24th, he went to see a lady and they did some chanting and other spiritual work so he could get back the piece of his soul that he gave me. He went on to tell me that he also went to see another lady, who had him do some crystal and candle work, to trap a "very strong entity" that was around him, they put this "entity" in the crystal and broke the crystal, symbolizing the destruction of the entity.
(sidebar: That is not me in this pic, lol)WHAT THE FUCK IS HE TRYING TO SAY AND DO? Is he saying that I am an "entity"?
Bff, at this point in the game, he does not acknowledge that we are TF's, but he does acknowledge that we share a strong connection. However, apparently, he does not understand that our "strong connection" is so strong that the things he does, feels and experiences also has an affect on me.
As he is telling me all of the "wonderful" things he is doing to grow and heal, I am sitting in my room in a fucking daze..........................and the voice in my head is saying, "You mean to tell me that he is doing some juju to heal himself, get back the part of his soul (which is actually OUR SOUL, we are 1), trap and destroy a demon not realizing that everything and anything he does (whether spiritual or not) I feel on a massive level?" This mother fucker here..............is fucking with my life and he does not even realize it.
Shaking my fucking head, I lovingly try to explain to him (again) that the connection we share is something that is very hard to explain for human understanding, it is a connection that defies all human comprehension all laws of space, time and life as we know it. It is an energetic, soul essence connection, blessed, protected and created by the Divine. I told him in these exact words, "The spiritual work that you do and did affected me on a physical, emotional and spiritual level. I feel the physical pain of you trying to get back the piece of your soul because now I feel like there is something trying to take my soul essence from me. I feel it in my heart, that is why I am having chest pains". I wanted to make sure that he innerstood, on the deepest level possible, that our connection is more intense than he or anyone could ever imagine!
I apologized, telling me that he did not realize his actions would have such a profound affect on me and he said he will be more mindful of what he does and who he goes to.
I remained out of work, Doctor's orders, for 3 and a half months trying to figure out if what he did energetic and spiritually damaged me physically. Till this day, I am still experiencing chest pains, left arm tingling and all different kinds of aches and pains. I am experiencing chest pains as I type this blog........... I have a Cardiologist, Gastroenterologist, Urologist, Rheumatologist, Pain Specialist, Breast Specialist, Counselor/Therapist and Pain Therapist, still, every single doctor/specialist I have gone to (and continue to go to) tells me that all of my organs are perfect, my health is perfect, my tests come back negative for EVERYTHING, there is NOTHING WRONG WITH ME!
So, Bff, why is my freaking chest still hurting?
Maybe Will can tell me why~~~!!!
