It's Been A Long Time

WOW............It sure has been a long ass time since I wrote to you.................life happens right? 

Soooooooooooooo mmmmmmmmmmmmuch shit has happened..................................Let me try to fill you in.

Things started to get really crazy between Yummy and I.....it had to stop.....As a matter of fact.........all of my superficial relationships ended.......some of them abruptly. 

Sam cussed me out over Yummy...mind you they STILL do business together.  On my birthday of this year as a matter of fact, Sam calls me asking me if my involvement with Yummy was done spitefully to hurt him........lolol.  Niggas think they are so fucking important to me.... I nicely listened to everything he said and then I told him that it was my birthday and I would call him back.  The next day came and I called back to answer his questions.....NIGGAS DON'T FUCKING CHANGE.  Unknown to Sam, who sells to my neph, all of the bull shit he was telling me on the phone is a fucking lie.....Sam told me that he felt like he did not have anything to bring to the table regarding me and he was doing some things in the background so that he could come to me as a "Man".  LOLOL.  He even told me that he thought he and I would be together....some cockamamie story about he slowed down on selling and smoking, started taking classes to get a better job, started looking into a marrage scam to get a house.  Guess what?  He has the house, however, he tells me that he did not get married, stopped smoking so much and is very hurt because of me...........So..........of course I asked him how in the fuck I was supposed to know he was doing all of that or even felt that way if he never expressed it.  Best of the joke.......I even mentioned to him that he told me, "At the end of the day I am still a regular young man"........that does not sound like you want to be with me......Sam had the nerve to think that I do things to spite  him.....LOLOL.  I got to the point where I told him, "Listen, we were not in a relationship nor are we now and you are asking me questions about my sex life, lol.  Please, understand this, NOT ONE THING I DO OR DID HAS OR HAD ANYTHING TO DO WITH YOU..YOU WERE NOT A THOUGHT IN MY MIND NOR WAS I THINKING OF YOU AT ALL....YOU WERE NOT INVOLVED IN MY DECISION ABOUT MY LIFE." I could give a flying fuck what he thinks or how he feels...........why????? Because he still owes me $2000 and he is calling me about his fucking feelings from 2 fucking years ago..........FUCK YOU.....FAKE ASS…..

So, that same weekend he reach out to me again, telling me that he took off and he was just chillin, wanted to know when we could get up and smoke.......lol. Sam.....Smoke the rotten pussyhole you came out of............................sorry as loser..............Don't think that this is the last time he will reach out to me........they always come back.

Will........aka Santiago Davis from Facebook...........has reached out to me more recently also...He actually read and may read my blog....thank you Will............You know Bff......I have grown so much..............so fucking much.................I just don't understand this one.  This time around Bff, I did not ask no questions, I don't want to know what is going on in his life, I don't give a flying fuck.........I know why Will reaches out to me.......I know who he is...........He just doesn't know who the fuck I am.....as a matter of fact........I don't think any of them know who I am..........Oh well.......I am not in the business of making sure people know...........let them find out on their own.  LOL.  So...this time when he reach out to me it was basically the same (aka Niggas don't change!!!).  Superficial text conversations about what is going on in the Universe, energy, books, knowledge, how we behave, you know....the occult and mysticism..........But this time..........I was different......I was neutral..........Not giving nor taking..........no emotions........just observing and gathering.......So....of course he asked for a pic.......of course he asked to see me and when the day came...........I did not hear from him..............typical..............but not the last time he will reach out to me either.

A few other people from my past reached out to my during my birthday month...not a surprise to me at all.............if you recall.........I am empathic........BFF we gotta really talk about that later........

Ya, so............ohh shit..............Bff........shit is realllllllllllll...I stopped communicating with Keys and D................I do not discriminate............I ELIMINATE the problems out of my life.....Bff listen, it is simple.........very simple for me.  All of my friends know that I will love you to death......I will do anything for you but if you cross me...........you might as well dig your own grave.

BFF, Keys and I have been friends since before we were born and I FEEL like she was using some "communication and life" skills she learned from Landmark (a cult) on me and I was not having it.  As a result, we got into a conversation in which she did not feel as she got her point across to me and I really did not care. Listen...after all of the years we have known each other and communicated with each other, now all of a sudden, after she starts attending Landmark meetings and using the tools they give her in her life, now she feels like she needs to communicate another way............don't test no shit on my cause I will completely destroy what ever it is you think you are test or learning..I am not the one.  The end result was her and I not communicating, she would reach out to me but I would not respond...it goes deeper than I am writing now but there is no need for me to go into it cause I really don't give a flying fuck any more...but Bff..........I will tell you that............the rest of 2013 passed and 2014 came along and it was in February when she reached out to me again becasue she was in trouble..............BITCHES ARE JUST LIKE NIGGAS........... More recently she reached out to me too.............for my bday, lol............We ended up doing brunch and that was 2 weeks ago.  I do not intend on trying to get back what we had...........fuck it..........I just don't have time for this shit.

As far as D goes.....We still work together but we do not see each other often and when we do see each other, she looks like a baby deer caught in the headlights............No need for me to waste my time or energy on explaining what happened with her cause....................it does not put money in my back account to talk about people who are dead to me.

As a matter of fact.....All of these people I should consider dead to me for one reason or another..........BFF.............I am starting to get hot so I am going to have to leave for right now and come back when the demons from my past are no longer bothering me, lolol............Damn...it has been a long ass time!