I know I said I was going to try to do everything in my power to make the feeling I had yesterday grow........I know it is ultimately up to me how I feel..........I know my thoughts become things and in order to manifest what you want in life, you have to claim it, feel it and live like you have it.......but this morning nothing I did or thought helped me out of my emotional rut........I am starting to think that I suffer from some sort of depression...maybe I am the lady in the depression commercial......
I remember a time nothing seemed to bother me......I would walk down the street and people would ask me, "How can I get some of your peace?".....I want that back so badly.....I am going to get that back......
Today was so hot, I did not bother to go outside until work was over. And when work was over, I reluctantly dragged my big ass to belly dance class. I am so happy I did, it was so much fun...I have to find a way to bellydance once a day....BFF, I am telling you, you have to find something that you love and do it, get obsessed with it, make it yours, I promise, you will find peace and joy!
I have not heard from any of the guys I told you about now that I think about it. That just goes to show me that they are "superficial". Hmmmmmmm. I can't even say that I am upset about it either. I prefer to have one special relationship than many empty superficial relationships.......hmmmmmmm
Anyway, tomorrow is a new day, with new blessings and opportunities......today is over......let's look towards the bright future.........
I remember a time nothing seemed to bother me......I would walk down the street and people would ask me, "How can I get some of your peace?".....I want that back so badly.....I am going to get that back......
Today was so hot, I did not bother to go outside until work was over. And when work was over, I reluctantly dragged my big ass to belly dance class. I am so happy I did, it was so much fun...I have to find a way to bellydance once a day....BFF, I am telling you, you have to find something that you love and do it, get obsessed with it, make it yours, I promise, you will find peace and joy!
I have not heard from Sam. I guess he is upset because I was not available for him when he wanted me to be. We always go through stupid shit like this... makes me wonder if he knows how to be a real friend. To be honest with you, I wonder why I even put myself through the shit I do concerning him and other people. I did not realize until recently that I have a lot of "superficial relationships" in my "meantime" period. I just have to buckle down, stop being scared and clean house.
I have not heard from any of the guys I told you about now that I think about it. That just goes to show me that they are "superficial". Hmmmmmmm. I can't even say that I am upset about it either. I prefer to have one special relationship than many empty superficial relationships.......hmmmmmmm
Anyway, tomorrow is a new day, with new blessings and opportunities......today is over......let's look towards the bright future.........
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