Much Overdue............

BFF.........where do I start.........

Dang, it has been over a year since I wrote to you.....so much has happened......so much has changed.......too many things remain the same, lolol.

Let me start off by saying that I tried to record my life with a handwritten diary............it did not work.........I missed days, weeks, months......it was getting out of hand.

I started dating someone from my past, lolol......It's so hard to take your own advice sometimes. Well, let me speak for myself, I have a hard time taking my own advice at all times, lol. I walked backwards and was forehead deep in pure SHIT! It was so bad I stopped my colonics and started to become detached from everything...........SMFH...

I no longer communicate with ANYONE....No Keys, No Yummy and NO SAM!!! Ok, Ok, let me correct that statement. Sam cussed me out, lol. I thought it was very cute, showing all of his emotions haha......Keys..........I feel like she tried to use me as a growth experiment.......I want no parts of that shit so what ended up happening is she only contacts me when she wants interns.......and yes, she will know that I am talking about her but I don't give a fuck! As for Yummy..........I witnessed his different sides and realized I was a pawn in his game. Listen, I am all for course correction..........so I ain't mad!!! LOL.

In the mist of all of this freakin drama, I combed out my locks and started recording and editing a vlog. Lawd........so much has happened...........

Ok, for a year, I was dating a guy I went to high school with. In high school we had an episode and after that one time, he never spoke to me again. During the remaining years, I heard conflicting stories about him and why he did not speak, but I really did not care. I wanted to hear it from him. Life goes on and of course I forgot about him, after all, that shit happened in high school, lol.

Any who...he posted a message on face book inquiring if anyone was willing to do a photo shoot for his album cover. "Why not?", I thought to myself, so I replied and we set the date, time and place.

Long story short........we started dating February 14, 2012, lol................March 10, 2013 he broke up with me. A year of self inflected torture........why because deep down inside.....I must love pain, lol.

During that year of dating him, we decided to start a YouTube show.......Juicah Talke... It did not last only. We only recorded 3 shows. He records and edits, but I guess some people don't know how to separate business from pleasure and when he broke up with me, the show ended, lol.

Needless to say that after he tried to hurt me with the break up on my bday, I decided to cleanse and purge myself of all negativity. So I combed my locks out and let me tell you I felt so much lighter, cleaner and open. I started to record and edit my own vlogs....purchased my own camera and computers and never looked back to him for help with anything. I don't even think he knows what I am doing and I don't care either.

After everything that I have allowed myself to experience, lolol..........I won't be moved by anyone's opinion of me....lolol.

So......now today..............I have decided to come back......return home..........it is soooooooooo much overdue!!!!!!!!!!!!

(Don't worry..........I will definately update you on all of the Juicah details of what has transpired over the last year, hehehe.  This is so exciting!)