So Bff, I know it is kind of late, but we are Bff's right?
I can't say that anything major happened to day Bff, but I be on it...........
I went to both belly dance classes today, back to freakin back. The teacher worked us so much that now I feel like I got beat the fuck up, lolol.
Because of the holidays, I have missed a lot of classes. I promised myself that this year I would be more consistent and focused when it came to dancing so that I can perform.
So, Bff, this shit with Sam continues. I text him today asking him for the $200 I recently lent him which he never gave me back. Everything I ask him about this money he tells me he gotta pay his car note, he only has half, he will bring it by, but I still don't have this money.
Yesterday, I got to the point that I told him my car note is 3 months behind and I have more bills now than before that I have to pay. Why is it that he can pay his car note but I can't pay mine. Bff, I told him this stuff to see if he is going to be a man, correction, creature of his word and give me back the money. I figured if I came to him in need of my own damn money back, it would bring about some thing in him to make him pay me back sooner. Niggas don't have pride, I gotta remember that niggas like Sam are not normal. They are like blood sucking camelions, changing to fit the environment, lolol.
Sam told me that he thought he would have the money today, but unfortunately he does not. He is in the process of trying to get up enough money to FIRST pay off his car not for the month and THEN pay me back the $200. He said he he just got some weed from YumYum, so he can give me the $100 profit from that and then later on in the week give me the remaining $100.
Bff, it is now 2:00 a.m. Sunday morning and I do not have $.01 in my hand. Hmmmm, Juicah, OBSERVE BITCH PLEASE SIT BACK AND OBSERVE!
After I gave him my sob story (and a story it is) about my car being up for repo and all of the new bills I gotta pay, he said he would try his hardest to get me the money. I guess he just don't give a fuck!
Besides, that Bff, my day was pleasant.
I have noticed that I go through cycles of being worldly and being spiritual. For me, everything is an extreme. For too long I have been completely world and as a result, I have experienced nothing but pain and sorry. Maybe, just maybe if I focused more on my spirituality, eventually everything will fall into place? You think Bff? How about this? How about I try it this year, I try to be more spiritual than worldly and see what really happens. Yes, Bff, that is what I am going to do and I will start with this situation with Sam.....
So Bff, I am supposed to be observing...........growing, understanding, and learning.........I am to put my emotions to the side and treat everyone with compassion and love...........I may not be successful, but I will try............(how does that sound, lol).........
I have to remind myself........I am supposed to be observing...............
I can't say that anything major happened to day Bff, but I be on it...........
I went to both belly dance classes today, back to freakin back. The teacher worked us so much that now I feel like I got beat the fuck up, lolol.
Because of the holidays, I have missed a lot of classes. I promised myself that this year I would be more consistent and focused when it came to dancing so that I can perform.
So, Bff, this shit with Sam continues. I text him today asking him for the $200 I recently lent him which he never gave me back. Everything I ask him about this money he tells me he gotta pay his car note, he only has half, he will bring it by, but I still don't have this money.
Yesterday, I got to the point that I told him my car note is 3 months behind and I have more bills now than before that I have to pay. Why is it that he can pay his car note but I can't pay mine. Bff, I told him this stuff to see if he is going to be a man, correction, creature of his word and give me back the money. I figured if I came to him in need of my own damn money back, it would bring about some thing in him to make him pay me back sooner. Niggas don't have pride, I gotta remember that niggas like Sam are not normal. They are like blood sucking camelions, changing to fit the environment, lolol.
Sam told me that he thought he would have the money today, but unfortunately he does not. He is in the process of trying to get up enough money to FIRST pay off his car not for the month and THEN pay me back the $200. He said he he just got some weed from YumYum, so he can give me the $100 profit from that and then later on in the week give me the remaining $100.
Bff, it is now 2:00 a.m. Sunday morning and I do not have $.01 in my hand. Hmmmm, Juicah, OBSERVE BITCH PLEASE SIT BACK AND OBSERVE!
After I gave him my sob story (and a story it is) about my car being up for repo and all of the new bills I gotta pay, he said he would try his hardest to get me the money. I guess he just don't give a fuck!
Besides, that Bff, my day was pleasant.
I have noticed that I go through cycles of being worldly and being spiritual. For me, everything is an extreme. For too long I have been completely world and as a result, I have experienced nothing but pain and sorry. Maybe, just maybe if I focused more on my spirituality, eventually everything will fall into place? You think Bff? How about this? How about I try it this year, I try to be more spiritual than worldly and see what really happens. Yes, Bff, that is what I am going to do and I will start with this situation with Sam.....
So Bff, I am supposed to be observing...........growing, understanding, and learning.........I am to put my emotions to the side and treat everyone with compassion and love...........I may not be successful, but I will try............(how does that sound, lol).........
I have to remind myself........I am supposed to be observing...............
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