So Bff, remember I told you I was going to be more spiritual than worldly, right? You remember that conversation we had, lol. Well, the world is weighing down on me, trying to make me carry it......trying to make me be all up around and in it.....I don't want to right now..........I have other things on my agenda........
One, being, developing my psychic powers...........Go ahead Bff, laugh all you want......I guarantee that once I have gotten started developing them......you will see the drastic change and want to change also......ahaha!
So, Bff, things remain the same. Sam insists on contacting me with the same sob story.......Yet, I still have not seen the money...............but it is very ironic that he makes sure that he does not let 3 days go by without contacting me to explain or tell me some other sob story. Ohh Ohh, the new thing is that is favorite uncle died........the uncle that had the ability to keep the family together......now that he is gone, it is going to be a bad year for Sam.....booohoooo!!!!!!!!!!Today the story is he is making life decisions and he is broke.......but he will give me $200 after his car not gets paid............lol..............
So since it is Friday (or should I say, I am writing this about yesterday) and I have no date or plans..........before I decided to really act on my words, you know......me being less worldly, I went to hang out with .........correction......meet and hang out with a guy I have been chatting with on Facebook and the phone. I met him in a virtual chat room created on Facebook.
As usual, our conversations have been very very pleasing.......it SEEMS as though we have some things in common....isn't that always the case? Hmm.....well, it was until I asked him if he was a felon and he replied in the affirmative. He even went on to tell me a story about how a girl told him that she could not date him because he was a felon. He got upset and told her not to judge him.
Bff, I completely understand where he is coming from.......I really do......but the fact of the matter is.............no matter what reason you have a felony............YOU WILL NOT BE ABLE TO GET A JOB..............no one is going to want to consider the reason behind why you have a felony...........they will not be able to get over the fact that you have one, much less be open enough to consider the reason you have one when considering you for employment................Let's face it.......we have not grown as humans!
And if by chance you are lucky enough to get employment....you still have to deal with how society "stereotypes" you!
Lucky for me, he and I were not at the level of talking about dating..............we never even met each other.................so, I agreed to meet him at his house so we could get better acquainted..................No Bff, not like sexually better acquaint ourselves, it was more on the lines of us being about to talk and vibe in person instead of over the phone............an added bonus is the face that both he and I smoke.............Yay!
I figured that since we were not going out any place and it was Friday, I could take my time and clean a little when I got home.............that is exactly what I did............no sense in me rushing and getting all hyper and excited............shit............if he did not think much of taking me out.......I am not going to think much of his time..........I am going to take my time and make sure everything is the way I like it on my side so I don't have much to do tomorrow or for the rest of the weekend, lol.....................
The day did not take long to end......I guess because I was not really excited about tonight............well, not like I have been excited about meeting other people........I got home at a decent time.......decent enough for me to clean, take a nice warm shower, eat, and get ready to leave..............I didn't really want to make a big deal out of anything, so I wore my little black house dress and black knee high boots......it was cold out and I wanted to look cute but warm, hehe.........
Instead of giving me his address, let's just call him Gov, Gov wanted to direct me as I was driving..........let me mention that a few days before we agreed to this type of meeting, he started to speak as if we fell in love with each other...........sending me messages saying that he just knows I am going to be his, he just feels something about me that he has never felt about or with anyone else.........Yeah, ok buddy..............The Dog Whisperer teaches that it is acceptable to ignore the unwanted behavior in dogs and they will stop........how long do I have to ignore these remarks, lol?
So, all dressed and in the car, I call Gov and he directed me...............street by street..............intersection by intersection......................................Bff, I know I get lost, but this shit was crazy.........I'm not incompetent, I just don't have a sense of direction..........lol
I have always had the inability to hide my thoughts through my facial expressions.........I know meeting Gov did not change that one bit.................when I got to his house............after him telling me during our conversation that I would not be meeting his sister or anyone else from his family, not only was his sister sitting at the dining room table, but his friend was sitting in their den...............that was an extension of the dining room, lol...............
What have I gotten myself into...............his friend happens to be another board member who was sending me private messages about us getting together in a form of street language I am not familiar with. Not only is the world small, but bad habits die young..............I told myself I would be more spiritual and look at where I find myself with bad habits........lol............
Ok, it wasn't so unbearably uncomfortable to be around his sister, who had her hair wrapped up in a ghetto scarf, a tee shirt on that reached her upper thigh, bowed legs with socks and slippers; and his home boy Bley. Wait, wait, wait, Bff..............I skipped some stuff.....I pulled up and he told me to park next to the car in his drive way.............his drive way happened to be what I would call part of his front lawn that was paved with cement instead of having grass................
As I walked in the house, you could tell that his family is the typical West Indian family...............no Bff, there is nothing wrong with it, I am not being racist........I am West Indian.......I know what a typical West Indian house looks like, I live in one!
After being introduced to his sister and being surprised by seeing his friend, Bley, I was offered a seat and instantly became a part of the 3 man house party.............Ohh wait...........trying not to be obvious.......trying not to look so hard and stare......I noticed Gov's sister trying to get his attention.........when she did, he followed her into the dining and living room..............
Before I even had a chance to think about what they could have been talking about.......he came back and asked me for my keys as his sister yelled out to him that their aunt was going to park where my car is and he could move my car in front of the house............WOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! His aunt is coming by..............well, what the fuck?............shit is just happening......changing before my eyes and all I could do is smile and instantly adapt......................
Luckily, Gov put a stand up comedy movie on, relieving some of the tension and anxiety I felt from all of the sudden changes.......................as he jumped when his sister spoke and greeted his aunt.......who happened to have the same name as me...................
If I thought that there was a slight chance I would have met his sister, aunt, uncle, friend, dog or pet spider, I would not have worn my baby doll house dress............NEVER.........When he told me that he was going to introduce me to his aunt, I damn near got my coat and left.........I am wearing a fuck me baby doll dress and eat my juicy pussy boots, what the fuck is his auntie gonna think???..........he didn't care, so why the fuck should I???......Out of now where, like a child who wants to show off his new prize, this mother fucker called to his aunt so that he could introduce us, I stood right up, pulled my dress out of my ass in front of Bley and gave her the same hand to shake, as we greeted each other..............what? lol
I knew I was not going to be in control of a few things this evening, but I was gonna damn well control me.............Since Gov was tending to his sister and aunt, I made small talk with Bley.......who was complaining about some of the board members talking bad about him and stuff.............As he was talking, I was working out in my head why and how I got myself into this situation with all that I had already experienced? I wondered why bad habits were at the forefront with me................it's like I am supposed to deal with........break them first before I am able to make any advancements....
I went along with everything that was happening.......I was really eager to see how this night/morning was going to end.............
We all got to a point, including Auntie, where we wanted to relax and go our separate ways........Auntie went upstairs to go to bed while sis, Gov, Bley and I went downstairs to smoke.
Bff, at this point, I knew.......I just knew that he and I would be able to be alone so we could sit and talk............what ended up happening was............we ALL went downstairs, descending a semi-homemade pair of wooden stairs and came upon an incomplete basement.......
Quickly looking around, watching where I was walking, I could see that it would not take much work for the basement to be fully functioning, it just needed a little work..............I think what ended up happening is that perhaps they got really comfortable and forgot that a basement could actually be used as a part of the house........it looked like they tried to use it but it ended up being a place for storage.........
I followed his Planet of the Apes walking sister into a room with a huge bed and piles of clothes and shoes on the floor and all over the place.............what? what the fuck...........we were in Gov's sister's room. What the fuck am I really doing? Are we really going to be smoking in his sister's room, all 4 of us?
Oh lawd, I just hope that my facial expression did not show what I was really thinking..............I got the feeling that his sister got a sense of what I was going through, but I really did not get the sense that she cared.....all she cared about was smoking.............
I continued to make small talk with whoever I was left alone with...........being that I was sitting closer to Bley, he was at the center of my attention.................while Gov and his sis sat on her bed rolling and talking to all of us...........
I could not help but notice all of the shoes she had all over the place...........we instantly started a conversation about shoes............some of the shoes she had in pile on the floor were nice, some looked like old lady shoes, lol. Why oh why Bff, did she offer me a pair of her see through granny sandals? Why?
I graciously tried them on, she encourage me to even though I told her that they would not fit.................I took off my eat my pussy boots and slipped my foot into the sandal, all the while looking at Gov, he has a thing for feet and I did not want him to see mine (not cause they were ugly, but cause I did not want to encourage him liking me anymore than his words told me he liked me)......I noticed him staring at me ever so often........
We had a nice little cipher going………and it did not seem like they wanted it to stop…….They just kept rolling……
Now, normally, I would be down…..but they looked like they did this for a living……they looked like they were down for WHATEVA! I’m not, lololol!
I was starting to feel uncomfortable, Gov’s sis started preachin about reppin two hoods and her love for both of them, with intense love and passion…..something started to come over me……disgust…I wanted an out and was not going to just sit around and just deal…..I was going to jump at the first opportunity I got……..
As we started our 4th blunt, Bley made a phone call to his boy, ask for a lift home……..this became the perfect opportunity………my way out………
There was no way I was going to stay there with Gov and his naked ape sister……lawd only knows what they have on their mind…….not to mention that this lady did not put any clothes on when there is company in the house…….I did not want to find out what would happen if I stayed……..
I could tell that we were all feeling the effect of the smokes, everyone’s eyes were blood shot red……..and we all started to move slower, lol……..
Perfect timing………Bley’s ride came……..which gave me alone time with ape sis……..I am quick on my feet, so I used this time to comment on the fact that it was late and I should follow Bley’s lead in going home. I even took it as far as laughing and saying that Gov would be upset when he came back down cause he would have to go right back up to let me out………I WAS LEAVING……..lol.
You better believe that is exactly what happened……….when Gov came back down, I immediately told him that it was getting late and I had to leave…….I could tell by the dullness in his eyes that he was a little disappointed……I mean really Bff, it was Friday, I could have stayed if I really wanted to….but I did not want to….I wanted to go home……I had enough!!!!!!!
Slowly, Gov got my coat and helped me put it on…….I did not want to put myself in any more horrific positions so I moved in such a way that we would not experience that awkward “goodbye”……..ok lemme stop suga coating my words….I put on my coat and made a mad dash for my car……..
You know what? This fuck is crazy…….He parked my car, tightly between two damn trucks…….
I said I wanted out right?......I worked my car out of the tight spot and sped home…..never looking back……..
Bad habits…….bad fucking habits………….
One, being, developing my psychic powers...........Go ahead Bff, laugh all you want......I guarantee that once I have gotten started developing them......you will see the drastic change and want to change also......ahaha!
So, Bff, things remain the same. Sam insists on contacting me with the same sob story.......Yet, I still have not seen the money...............but it is very ironic that he makes sure that he does not let 3 days go by without contacting me to explain or tell me some other sob story. Ohh Ohh, the new thing is that is favorite uncle died........the uncle that had the ability to keep the family together......now that he is gone, it is going to be a bad year for Sam.....booohoooo!!!!!!!!!!Today the story is he is making life decisions and he is broke.......but he will give me $200 after his car not gets paid............lol..............
So since it is Friday (or should I say, I am writing this about yesterday) and I have no date or plans..........before I decided to really act on my words, you know......me being less worldly, I went to hang out with .........correction......meet and hang out with a guy I have been chatting with on Facebook and the phone. I met him in a virtual chat room created on Facebook.
As usual, our conversations have been very very pleasing.......it SEEMS as though we have some things in common....isn't that always the case? Hmm.....well, it was until I asked him if he was a felon and he replied in the affirmative. He even went on to tell me a story about how a girl told him that she could not date him because he was a felon. He got upset and told her not to judge him.
Bff, I completely understand where he is coming from.......I really do......but the fact of the matter is.............no matter what reason you have a felony............YOU WILL NOT BE ABLE TO GET A JOB..............no one is going to want to consider the reason behind why you have a felony...........they will not be able to get over the fact that you have one, much less be open enough to consider the reason you have one when considering you for employment................Let's face it.......we have not grown as humans!
And if by chance you are lucky enough to get employment....you still have to deal with how society "stereotypes" you!
Lucky for me, he and I were not at the level of talking about dating..............we never even met each other.................so, I agreed to meet him at his house so we could get better acquainted..................No Bff, not like sexually better acquaint ourselves, it was more on the lines of us being about to talk and vibe in person instead of over the phone............an added bonus is the face that both he and I smoke.............Yay!
I figured that since we were not going out any place and it was Friday, I could take my time and clean a little when I got home.............that is exactly what I did............no sense in me rushing and getting all hyper and excited............shit............if he did not think much of taking me out.......I am not going to think much of his time..........I am going to take my time and make sure everything is the way I like it on my side so I don't have much to do tomorrow or for the rest of the weekend, lol.....................
The day did not take long to end......I guess because I was not really excited about tonight............well, not like I have been excited about meeting other people........I got home at a decent time.......decent enough for me to clean, take a nice warm shower, eat, and get ready to leave..............I didn't really want to make a big deal out of anything, so I wore my little black house dress and black knee high boots......it was cold out and I wanted to look cute but warm, hehe.........
Instead of giving me his address, let's just call him Gov, Gov wanted to direct me as I was driving..........let me mention that a few days before we agreed to this type of meeting, he started to speak as if we fell in love with each other...........sending me messages saying that he just knows I am going to be his, he just feels something about me that he has never felt about or with anyone else.........Yeah, ok buddy..............The Dog Whisperer teaches that it is acceptable to ignore the unwanted behavior in dogs and they will stop........how long do I have to ignore these remarks, lol?
So, all dressed and in the car, I call Gov and he directed me...............street by street..............intersection by intersection......................................Bff, I know I get lost, but this shit was crazy.........I'm not incompetent, I just don't have a sense of direction..........lol
I have always had the inability to hide my thoughts through my facial expressions.........I know meeting Gov did not change that one bit.................when I got to his house............after him telling me during our conversation that I would not be meeting his sister or anyone else from his family, not only was his sister sitting at the dining room table, but his friend was sitting in their den...............that was an extension of the dining room, lol...............
What have I gotten myself into...............his friend happens to be another board member who was sending me private messages about us getting together in a form of street language I am not familiar with. Not only is the world small, but bad habits die young..............I told myself I would be more spiritual and look at where I find myself with bad habits........lol............
Ok, it wasn't so unbearably uncomfortable to be around his sister, who had her hair wrapped up in a ghetto scarf, a tee shirt on that reached her upper thigh, bowed legs with socks and slippers; and his home boy Bley. Wait, wait, wait, Bff..............I skipped some stuff.....I pulled up and he told me to park next to the car in his drive way.............his drive way happened to be what I would call part of his front lawn that was paved with cement instead of having grass................
As I walked in the house, you could tell that his family is the typical West Indian family...............no Bff, there is nothing wrong with it, I am not being racist........I am West Indian.......I know what a typical West Indian house looks like, I live in one!
After being introduced to his sister and being surprised by seeing his friend, Bley, I was offered a seat and instantly became a part of the 3 man house party.............Ohh wait...........trying not to be obvious.......trying not to look so hard and stare......I noticed Gov's sister trying to get his attention.........when she did, he followed her into the dining and living room..............
Before I even had a chance to think about what they could have been talking about.......he came back and asked me for my keys as his sister yelled out to him that their aunt was going to park where my car is and he could move my car in front of the house............WOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! His aunt is coming by..............well, what the fuck?............shit is just happening......changing before my eyes and all I could do is smile and instantly adapt......................
Luckily, Gov put a stand up comedy movie on, relieving some of the tension and anxiety I felt from all of the sudden changes.......................as he jumped when his sister spoke and greeted his aunt.......who happened to have the same name as me...................
If I thought that there was a slight chance I would have met his sister, aunt, uncle, friend, dog or pet spider, I would not have worn my baby doll house dress............NEVER.........When he told me that he was going to introduce me to his aunt, I damn near got my coat and left.........I am wearing a fuck me baby doll dress and eat my juicy pussy boots, what the fuck is his auntie gonna think???..........he didn't care, so why the fuck should I???......Out of now where, like a child who wants to show off his new prize, this mother fucker called to his aunt so that he could introduce us, I stood right up, pulled my dress out of my ass in front of Bley and gave her the same hand to shake, as we greeted each other..............what? lol
I knew I was not going to be in control of a few things this evening, but I was gonna damn well control me.............Since Gov was tending to his sister and aunt, I made small talk with Bley.......who was complaining about some of the board members talking bad about him and stuff.............As he was talking, I was working out in my head why and how I got myself into this situation with all that I had already experienced? I wondered why bad habits were at the forefront with me................it's like I am supposed to deal with........break them first before I am able to make any advancements....
I went along with everything that was happening.......I was really eager to see how this night/morning was going to end.............
We all got to a point, including Auntie, where we wanted to relax and go our separate ways........Auntie went upstairs to go to bed while sis, Gov, Bley and I went downstairs to smoke.
Bff, at this point, I knew.......I just knew that he and I would be able to be alone so we could sit and talk............what ended up happening was............we ALL went downstairs, descending a semi-homemade pair of wooden stairs and came upon an incomplete basement.......
Quickly looking around, watching where I was walking, I could see that it would not take much work for the basement to be fully functioning, it just needed a little work..............I think what ended up happening is that perhaps they got really comfortable and forgot that a basement could actually be used as a part of the house........it looked like they tried to use it but it ended up being a place for storage.........
I followed his Planet of the Apes walking sister into a room with a huge bed and piles of clothes and shoes on the floor and all over the place.............what? what the fuck...........we were in Gov's sister's room. What the fuck am I really doing? Are we really going to be smoking in his sister's room, all 4 of us?
Oh lawd, I just hope that my facial expression did not show what I was really thinking..............I got the feeling that his sister got a sense of what I was going through, but I really did not get the sense that she cared.....all she cared about was smoking.............
I continued to make small talk with whoever I was left alone with...........being that I was sitting closer to Bley, he was at the center of my attention.................while Gov and his sis sat on her bed rolling and talking to all of us...........
I could not help but notice all of the shoes she had all over the place...........we instantly started a conversation about shoes............some of the shoes she had in pile on the floor were nice, some looked like old lady shoes, lol. Why oh why Bff, did she offer me a pair of her see through granny sandals? Why?
I graciously tried them on, she encourage me to even though I told her that they would not fit.................I took off my eat my pussy boots and slipped my foot into the sandal, all the while looking at Gov, he has a thing for feet and I did not want him to see mine (not cause they were ugly, but cause I did not want to encourage him liking me anymore than his words told me he liked me)......I noticed him staring at me ever so often........
We had a nice little cipher going………and it did not seem like they wanted it to stop…….They just kept rolling……
Now, normally, I would be down…..but they looked like they did this for a living……they looked like they were down for WHATEVA! I’m not, lololol!
I was starting to feel uncomfortable, Gov’s sis started preachin about reppin two hoods and her love for both of them, with intense love and passion…..something started to come over me……disgust…I wanted an out and was not going to just sit around and just deal…..I was going to jump at the first opportunity I got……..
As we started our 4th blunt, Bley made a phone call to his boy, ask for a lift home……..this became the perfect opportunity………my way out………
There was no way I was going to stay there with Gov and his naked ape sister……lawd only knows what they have on their mind…….not to mention that this lady did not put any clothes on when there is company in the house…….I did not want to find out what would happen if I stayed……..
I could tell that we were all feeling the effect of the smokes, everyone’s eyes were blood shot red……..and we all started to move slower, lol……..
Perfect timing………Bley’s ride came……..which gave me alone time with ape sis……..I am quick on my feet, so I used this time to comment on the fact that it was late and I should follow Bley’s lead in going home. I even took it as far as laughing and saying that Gov would be upset when he came back down cause he would have to go right back up to let me out………I WAS LEAVING……..lol.
You better believe that is exactly what happened……….when Gov came back down, I immediately told him that it was getting late and I had to leave…….I could tell by the dullness in his eyes that he was a little disappointed……I mean really Bff, it was Friday, I could have stayed if I really wanted to….but I did not want to….I wanted to go home……I had enough!!!!!!!
Slowly, Gov got my coat and helped me put it on…….I did not want to put myself in any more horrific positions so I moved in such a way that we would not experience that awkward “goodbye”……..ok lemme stop suga coating my words….I put on my coat and made a mad dash for my car……..
You know what? This fuck is crazy…….He parked my car, tightly between two damn trucks…….
I said I wanted out right?......I worked my car out of the tight spot and sped home…..never looking back……..
Bad habits…….bad fucking habits………….
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