Well, Bff........it sure has been some time since we had a pow wow! So much has happened........so much to to write and talk about.......this is my pattern.........like the ebb and flow of the ocean......my life.........
Haha. So Bff, it feels good to be back, I will try my hardest not to leave you for so long again.........I don't even know where to start.........don't know where to begin............hmmmm lemme see.....ok I will start from the most recent thing......wait, let me back track.
The last time I wrote you was in August, when I was going upstate to see Oshun. Let me tell you, it was wonderful..It was just so completely refreshing...ahhhhh I still have river water from that trip.
Since then things have been..............hmmmm........you know me, they have been..........Shit is cray!
I went to Vegas with some of my girlfriends..........everyone, and I mean EVERYONE fell to the waste side.
Listen to this shit. You know that Sam and I have known each other for a few years....I have helped him out a few times, monetarily and emotionally. It got to the point where we did not see each other much, we did not talk to each other much, we knew we were friends...get me.
Well, I found out that Sam had a house warming party in Long Island and did not invite me. I thought we were supposed to be friends. This nigga claims that I am good people, he knows he can depend on me, I am a true friend, but I don't get an invite to his house warming....I didn't even know that he moved....that just goes to show you that niggas will ALWAYS be niggas.... always thinking that they can get over on other people. Lemme just sit the fuck back and see how this shit plays out.
But BFF, really, when I found out, I was livid..........Really Juicah, how could you let something like this happen again.......that is all my ego was saying to me....See, initially, instead of realizing that the Universe is working in my favor, working to allow me to see the truths, I took it personally and got a little upset......hmm I am human, but I want to evolve, lol. So, in my evolution, it dawned on me that...........on December 10, 2011 there was a lunar eclipse....what do we know about eclipses?......They forge the way for truths to be revealed and all you have to do is sit back and be an observer..........
In my case, it was not an easy thing to do, but it is something that I did. Being that I found this info out on Wednesday, yesterday, I must say, I see and feel a change in me, growth that is, lol.
So, when I initially found out, YumYum told me, yesterday, I stress, lol. I was with Sam on the 26th of December. Sam had this party on the 30th of December. All of this, time, dates, faces, words spinning around in my head, I AM FUCKING PISSED.
I sent Sam a text telling him I needed to talk to him NOW. Well, observation is supposed to be my new thing, but I can't help but act too. He responded and told me that he just woke up and would call me as soon as he got out of the shower. But which shower, the one in his grandmother's house, which I know him to live, or the one in Long Island, where he lives with his girlfriend, lol.
When Sam finally called me back, over an hour later, I had calmed down a bit. All I heard when he was talking was blah blah blah. I gave him some story about how I needed the dogs papers and some othe shit and he said it was a good thing cause he needed to take his dogs to the vet too. He would give someone a call and we would go there today together. This nigga owes me money, Bff, so I am going to try my hardest to play this shit cool so I can see if he will pay me back of if he is a complete and total STREET NIGGA!
I realized, as he was talking and I was listening, that he is an opportunist........who ever he can get the most from, he will be around......
It is amazing what is revealed to you when you know you are experiencing certain things as a part of your growth..........
If this situation with Sam pop up a few months ago, I would have gone crazy......would have called him and screamed at him......but for what? Now, yes, I am a bit saddened, disappointed and hurt to know that someone I considered a friend, someone who I have given my time, energy and love to presented themselves as being truthful and my friend, is really a fucking fake, lolol. Bff, this nigga met me when I was at my lowest and used that shit as his fucking advantage. GOD DON'T LIKE FUCKIN UGLY! This is the same nigga that tried to cheer me up when I cried, that hung out with me and shit. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR mother fuckers take my fucking kindness for weakness. Lemme calm the fuck down before my thoughts become things, lolol! Aside from my that emotional outburst, lol, BFF, I rather know now then continue to give of myself to this person and years down the road find out that he is a total fucking ghetto fake. Knowledge is Power, lol.
The entire day passed and I completely forgot about Sam calling me about the vet. When suddenly my phone vibrates and it is Sam who is calling me. Apprehensively, I pick up the phone, using my regular cheery voice when he calls. He commences to tell me some shit about the tattoo guy hitting on a girl he recommended.
I introduced Sam to a tattoo guy in our area. This guy Ink does some really nice tats at cheap prices. I figured that since I thought Sam was my friend and Sam gets tattoo, it would be helpful to introduce Sam to Ink. I did and Sam introduced in to a few of his friends, one friend in particular is a 19 year old girl. This girl went to Ink to get a tattoo and Ink hit on her. The girl went back to Sam and told Sam about it. Sam told the girl that when she goes back to Ink, if it happens again, tell Ink that she is dating Sam. Well, I guess she did that but Ink did not care and continued to hit on her. She finished her tat and called Sam pissed off. Sam then calls me and tells me this story, asking me questions about Ink. Mind you, I told Sam that Ink did the same thing to me and he laughed.
I did not mention that to Sam, but I did take note of it while Sam was screaming on the phone telling me the story like I cared......even though I didn't care, I would never let Sam know. I want to remain in the front seat of the movie that is playing out before my eyes concerning Sam! I do not want to be in the movie any longer!
So, I listen, like I was interested and when the phone call was over, I tossed my phone and went on with my day. I am not sure how much longer I can keep my fucking mouth shut, but I think I need to do some spiritual reading and stop being so worldly!
No mention of the vet! NONE. Niggas!
Oh shit. Happy New Year, please forgive me for just jumping right into things.
I am thinking about doing a vlog in an attempt to catch you up to speed as to what has been happen in my world, lol.
Oh BFF, I have missed you so much...I can't even begin to explain why I did not communicate with you for all of that time......Listen, this year you are coming with me every single place I go........and I am going!
Juicah Jones................ready for take off!
Muah!
Haha. So Bff, it feels good to be back, I will try my hardest not to leave you for so long again.........I don't even know where to start.........don't know where to begin............hmmmm lemme see.....ok I will start from the most recent thing......wait, let me back track.
The last time I wrote you was in August, when I was going upstate to see Oshun. Let me tell you, it was wonderful..It was just so completely refreshing...ahhhhh I still have river water from that trip.
Since then things have been..............hmmmm........you know me, they have been..........Shit is cray!
I went to Vegas with some of my girlfriends..........everyone, and I mean EVERYONE fell to the waste side.
Listen to this shit. You know that Sam and I have known each other for a few years....I have helped him out a few times, monetarily and emotionally. It got to the point where we did not see each other much, we did not talk to each other much, we knew we were friends...get me.
Well, I found out that Sam had a house warming party in Long Island and did not invite me. I thought we were supposed to be friends. This nigga claims that I am good people, he knows he can depend on me, I am a true friend, but I don't get an invite to his house warming....I didn't even know that he moved....that just goes to show you that niggas will ALWAYS be niggas.... always thinking that they can get over on other people. Lemme just sit the fuck back and see how this shit plays out.
But BFF, really, when I found out, I was livid..........Really Juicah, how could you let something like this happen again.......that is all my ego was saying to me....See, initially, instead of realizing that the Universe is working in my favor, working to allow me to see the truths, I took it personally and got a little upset......hmm I am human, but I want to evolve, lol. So, in my evolution, it dawned on me that...........on December 10, 2011 there was a lunar eclipse....what do we know about eclipses?......They forge the way for truths to be revealed and all you have to do is sit back and be an observer..........
In my case, it was not an easy thing to do, but it is something that I did. Being that I found this info out on Wednesday, yesterday, I must say, I see and feel a change in me, growth that is, lol.
So, when I initially found out, YumYum told me, yesterday, I stress, lol. I was with Sam on the 26th of December. Sam had this party on the 30th of December. All of this, time, dates, faces, words spinning around in my head, I AM FUCKING PISSED.
I sent Sam a text telling him I needed to talk to him NOW. Well, observation is supposed to be my new thing, but I can't help but act too. He responded and told me that he just woke up and would call me as soon as he got out of the shower. But which shower, the one in his grandmother's house, which I know him to live, or the one in Long Island, where he lives with his girlfriend, lol.
When Sam finally called me back, over an hour later, I had calmed down a bit. All I heard when he was talking was blah blah blah. I gave him some story about how I needed the dogs papers and some othe shit and he said it was a good thing cause he needed to take his dogs to the vet too. He would give someone a call and we would go there today together. This nigga owes me money, Bff, so I am going to try my hardest to play this shit cool so I can see if he will pay me back of if he is a complete and total STREET NIGGA!
I realized, as he was talking and I was listening, that he is an opportunist........who ever he can get the most from, he will be around......
It is amazing what is revealed to you when you know you are experiencing certain things as a part of your growth..........
If this situation with Sam pop up a few months ago, I would have gone crazy......would have called him and screamed at him......but for what? Now, yes, I am a bit saddened, disappointed and hurt to know that someone I considered a friend, someone who I have given my time, energy and love to presented themselves as being truthful and my friend, is really a fucking fake, lolol. Bff, this nigga met me when I was at my lowest and used that shit as his fucking advantage. GOD DON'T LIKE FUCKIN UGLY! This is the same nigga that tried to cheer me up when I cried, that hung out with me and shit. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR mother fuckers take my fucking kindness for weakness. Lemme calm the fuck down before my thoughts become things, lolol! Aside from my that emotional outburst, lol, BFF, I rather know now then continue to give of myself to this person and years down the road find out that he is a total fucking ghetto fake. Knowledge is Power, lol.
The entire day passed and I completely forgot about Sam calling me about the vet. When suddenly my phone vibrates and it is Sam who is calling me. Apprehensively, I pick up the phone, using my regular cheery voice when he calls. He commences to tell me some shit about the tattoo guy hitting on a girl he recommended.
I introduced Sam to a tattoo guy in our area. This guy Ink does some really nice tats at cheap prices. I figured that since I thought Sam was my friend and Sam gets tattoo, it would be helpful to introduce Sam to Ink. I did and Sam introduced in to a few of his friends, one friend in particular is a 19 year old girl. This girl went to Ink to get a tattoo and Ink hit on her. The girl went back to Sam and told Sam about it. Sam told the girl that when she goes back to Ink, if it happens again, tell Ink that she is dating Sam. Well, I guess she did that but Ink did not care and continued to hit on her. She finished her tat and called Sam pissed off. Sam then calls me and tells me this story, asking me questions about Ink. Mind you, I told Sam that Ink did the same thing to me and he laughed.
I did not mention that to Sam, but I did take note of it while Sam was screaming on the phone telling me the story like I cared......even though I didn't care, I would never let Sam know. I want to remain in the front seat of the movie that is playing out before my eyes concerning Sam! I do not want to be in the movie any longer!
So, I listen, like I was interested and when the phone call was over, I tossed my phone and went on with my day. I am not sure how much longer I can keep my fucking mouth shut, but I think I need to do some spiritual reading and stop being so worldly!
No mention of the vet! NONE. Niggas!
Oh shit. Happy New Year, please forgive me for just jumping right into things.
I am thinking about doing a vlog in an attempt to catch you up to speed as to what has been happen in my world, lol.
Oh BFF, I have missed you so much...I can't even begin to explain why I did not communicate with you for all of that time......Listen, this year you are coming with me every single place I go........and I am going!
Juicah Jones................ready for take off!
Muah!
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