BFF, BFF, BFF..........why oh why is the ding dong devil riding me......why? .................I am trying my hardest to stay the path.........trying my hardest not to give in................I fight but I feel like I never ever win cause it is on me..............invading me.......trying to take control of me..........today it got the best of me............
BFF, almost every night I have exchanged pleasantries with YumYum.........we have to stop this.........it is like we feed off of each other energy........like we need to be around each other in order to grow..............the magnetic energy between YumYum and I is indescribable..........BFF, I am not talking about anything sexual either...I am talking about pure divine energy......I am talking about spirits connecting and growing.....I am talking about something that is so hard to explain in words..............
BFF, today.........I had no control of how I was feeling......I did not want to have control.......I basically gave up............but YumYum was there to help me...........like an angel he carried me on his wings to safety and nursed me back to health...........
BFF, I can't lie..........he fucked me back to health, lolol............we both know that this should stop.......we both admit that it is not right.........we both fight internally with our flesh desires...........but we always lose the fight.........we end up failing the test...........which leads us to wanting each other more..........more intensely.......more deeply.........oh my heart is so torn............
To deprive ourselves of this wonderful gift would be a sin..........but our thoughts and actions are hard to keep within.......just the thought of being around him brings light to the dark..........something has to give and hopefully not my heart..........
When I feel down, he is there to pick me up........does not have to know what is going on, his essence fills to the brim of my cup........like a gift from above, he is always right on time........what we have is so sweet cause he can't be mine............
Always so close to me, toughing my heart...........yet so far away, why did we allow this to start............illuminate my path, my shining star.................sent directly from heaven, a gift from my Savior......
BFF, what I am going to do about my Shining Star?
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