If you sit back and let certain things flow naturally, you will be amazed at what you see and experience..........that is what I have decided to do with my "superficial relationships"............I reached out to every one, ever single one of the guys I have met within the last few months..............guess what? NONE replied.....
I can't say that I am surprised, but I can say that I am a little sad...........I know that life happens, I know that things are sometimes beyond our control, but I also know that people make time for what they want.........maybe it is me......maybe I should not expect people to do the things they say..........maybe I should believe that everything people tell me are lies..............maybe I should just become bitter and twisted and not trust anyone...................hmmm, that would go against my spirit.........so now I am here...........back at the source.........................
I knew it would come to this............why is it so difficult for me to do the things I know I should do......why do I fear success and the blessings that wait for me....they are right in front of me screaming for me to reach out and snatch them............
I feel like I have become too worldly..............like I am more into these "fake friendships" I have and not into growth, spiritualism or the like.............I make time out for everything and anything except for those things that I know will lift me to that next level......that will push me up the ladder of growth.......
BigDaddy, Don, Elliot, Mr. Lovel, none of them........not one of them responded.............should I really be surprised? lolol........I text Steve, the dry humper, and he replied that he did not know who I am, lolol..........now that hurt!
I can't say that I am surprised, but I can say that I am a little sad...........I know that life happens, I know that things are sometimes beyond our control, but I also know that people make time for what they want.........maybe it is me......maybe I should not expect people to do the things they say..........maybe I should believe that everything people tell me are lies..............maybe I should just become bitter and twisted and not trust anyone...................hmmm, that would go against my spirit.........so now I am here...........back at the source.........................
I knew it would come to this............why is it so difficult for me to do the things I know I should do......why do I fear success and the blessings that wait for me....they are right in front of me screaming for me to reach out and snatch them............
I feel like I have become too worldly..............like I am more into these "fake friendships" I have and not into growth, spiritualism or the like.............I make time out for everything and anything except for those things that I know will lift me to that next level......that will push me up the ladder of growth.......
I have to figure out why I cling to and why I am attracted to things that I know are no good for me...........figure out why I sway from my path all too often............I gotta get my mind right!
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